[Poppy Princess]

I find this frustrating. I want to write but every time I try, I just start crying. It's painful just to type letters. I don't understand anymore. Why am I so sad? What's wrong with me? Why can't I just do things like a normal human being.

[Rohag]

I'm not sure I know what a "normal" human being is, but I'd sure like to be a more functional human being.

You've written a few lines. Cry. Write a few more words if you want and are able. This space is yours.

[Poppy Princess]

Sorry, I meant stories. I write stories a lot. It's one of my very few pleasures. Now I only cry when I try to write.

[Poppy Princess]

I just want to like myself. I don't know how though.

[Betterdays14]

The first step of recovery is loving yourself. It's not as easy as one would think, but it's hard not to feel worthless when you convince yourself that you are.

[Fuzzybear]

I agree with this. we're here for you

Originally Posted by Rohag

I'm not sure I know what a "normal" human being is, but I'd sure like to be a more functional human being.

You've written a few lines. Cry. Write a few more words if you want and are able. This space is yours.

[Pierro]

Why dont you like yourself Poppy? Maybe thats whats making you sad. Are you seeing anyboby for your emotions.

[Poppy Princess]

I see a therapist once every two weeks.

I just don't like myself. I'm not sure why. I'm always angry and sad deep down. I can't seem to control it.

[Pierro]

Are you antidepressants. If you are maybe they are not the right ones for you. I had felt like you for soooo long, but I worked through it, and you will too. I know it doesnt seem like that now but it can get better.

[Poppy Princess]

I've been on four different ones so far. Maybe five will eventually help

[Pierro]

I am so sorry that you are having such a terrible time of it. I hope things turn around for you soon. Don't think that things will always be like this because they won't. Try pushing yourself out of your comfort zone, like going for a walk. I know that you might not feel like it but sometimes you just have to push yourself into a different mind fame because you can get comfortable in your misery. That's what my psychologist said to me and I think that she had a point! Just a thought. Best Wishes to you Poppy.

I don't know about crying while trying to write but for me I can't write anything because I'm too depressed and I just get frustrated. I wish I could be a normal human being too... it sucks, it really does. I'm sorry for you.

[Poppy Princess]

I actually really like taking walks.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Poppy Princess

I find this frustrating. I want to write but every time I try, I just start crying. It's painful just to type letters. I don't understand anymore. Why am I so sad? What's wrong with me? Why can't I just do things like a normal human being.

Hi Poppy Princess....Hopefully you've talked to your physician about this? If it's been going on for a while and you haven't yet discussed it with a medical professional, that would be a logical place to start. I don't know if you've actually been diagnosed with depression or some other mental illness, but if this is what's going on just waiting for the symptoms to stop can prove rather frustrating. The first step in solving a problem is defining it, and you can't make things better if you don't know what you're dealing with. Good luck to you.... ~whimsy