my emotions are all over the place

some days I feel up, some days I feel down...I seem to have feelings of hopelessness, sadness from past losses in business and career, to feeling like a total loser because two new business I opened failed, and I was evicted out of my office spaces two different times. Sometimes I wonder am I cursed? like Why is God punishing me? I believe in God and Jesus and consider myself a Christian but I just feel like I've gotten some unfair breaks over the course of my life and it just makes me very sad, just sucks! working years to achieve a goal in business only for the business to go bankrupt! sometimes I am so angry at God for allowing me to fail I yell and scream at him, then when I calm down I apologize to him. Just feel like God wants me to be a failure. But I know that's not true. Just WISH I could be successful so I can give my children a good life.

bluegirl, owning a successful business in this economy is a tough thing to do. I admire your dedication. I'm not a Christian but I think god is all around us--we just have to look for him. Your kids are a blessing. I understand wanting to give your kids a better life but giving them love and support is also a key part of giving them a good life. You and your kids can persevere through this difficult time. Hang in there..........D.

I'm with DePressMe - I'm impressed. Opening a business takes a lot, and then you went on to open another after the first one failed.

The first failure would have wiped out any resilience I had had. Do circumstances allow you to rest and recover?

(((((((( bluegirl ))))))