I can't

((((((((Suzy))))))))

Thanks for the idea - I guess its worth a shot, I am a much better writer than talker a lot of the time.

Will see about the meds I suppose.

((((((((((Tanya))))))))

Thank you!

Updatedness...

Guess who developped a virus/cold/flu?

I DID!

So on top of the fact I had little motivation before and crying sporadically, the lack of motivation becomes more apparent, crying hurts, and I feel icky.

Going to go talk to someone tomorrow (hopefully) and see what kind of advice he can give me. I trust him, I just need to learn how to speak up.

So hard. Feel like wallowing in self-pity right now. I know the stress is the major cause of my being ill, but this just makes me more stressed and miserable. Big ugly cycle ain't it? I never get sick. Grrr.

Thanks for all your kind words everyone (((((((hugs)))))))) . I may not show it too well right now (being self-centred et al) but I do care about each and every one of you!

Get some rest...

Thanks Petunia, but I can't. Rush rush rush to get stuff done for classes. I already missed half a class tonight because I just couldn't be there. Really hate being a student at times.

((((canders))))) I'm so sorry i didn't see your post up until now. I know how hard it can be to fully be able to open up and have an honest conversation with someone, and i know how heartbreaking it is to see the people you care the most about slowely fade away. But as hard as it is, it truly helps if you can at least find enough strength to talk to those that you do trust. Last night i had probably the biggest emotional breakdown in a long time .. feeling these same things - uncontrolably crying, built up emotions, loneliness ... the list could go on. But i called up someone very important to me. You know what she said, she told me that i needed to start being honest with myself, and that i needed to have someone that i can talk to. And we talked for over an hour and by the end of the conversation i felt so much better, even just being able to talk about a fraction of what was wrong. Canders you are a beautiful person, and i just know that you have enough strength in order to get through this rough patch. Keep your head up, and feel free to message me whenever you want. You can do this.

((((hugs))))

((((((Jacqueline))))))))

Thank you so much. I felt like that yesterday. And now I just feel blechy and am thinking I might wind up doing that again (not that I want to, I can just feel it).

Take care of yourself and I hope that you're feeling better soon yourself!

Getting sick on top of all this horse manure!!! That must be really terrible... don't feel bad about pitying yourself, you should!

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((( canders )))

I'm sorry to hear you're so down. Wish I could give you a hug IRL.

The same goes for me Take Care hun were all here for you

Thanks ((((((((Tanya)))))))))

One thing I hate about being sick, people keep telling me to go to bed!! I already sleep enough because I'm depressed.

Thanks for caring

(((((((((dcs_no1_fan)))))))))

Thanks!!