That old dark cloud again....

Hello Everyone, for the first eight months of this year have been nothing but torture, therapists ,self harm, gp visits, psychiatrists, anti psychotics antidepressants, mood stabliisers and then finally psych ward. You get the picture, right. Well things started to turn around for me when I started on effexor in July. I went back to work and even though it is still difficult I find the structure good for me.For the last few weeks I found a darkness creeping up on me again. I am here now crying my eyes out again, hoping that my family wont notice. I feel really down again, and thinking of suicide again. I am pathetic. I had a really bad night again (every night is bad) and my husband said to me I going back to the way you I was before. Is this true! Is he right! Could he have seen the depression before I did. I feel like taking the car and driving away as far away as I can and never coming back. What am I to do. Please any advice.

Provided he is observant enough, it is possible.

Have you worked out a contingency plan with doctors on how to proceed in this situation, a situation where you feel the return of old symptoms?

Please keep posting, Pierro.

I'm so sorry, I have no advice, just empathy and many hugs