So ****'ing lonely

My ex (on again off again , now completely done) texted me to say he misses me. I was fine, but now I'm a mess. I'm obsessing and feeling bad for myself and feeling so lonely because ill never be happy, and I miss having someone to hold me and fall asleep with. F this.

I know how you feel, when my ex broke up with me I was devastated, I knew she would be my last (I am not healthy and she is, and a lot younger than myself. It took a long time to adjust to not having her with me. Just when I think that I`m over it I dream about her, I wake up feeling really down, missing her etc, I really hope you feel better soon, regards Dionysius.

I pretty lonely, too. It is dominating my thoughts today. I cannot get anything done. I have no one top see. I am 44 years old and I have had only one relationships. I don't know how to get out.