[Lost in this world]

My mind seems to be having a war with its self. Right now my mind seems to think that depression is a selfish illness. It thinks that its all about me or poor me ive got this and you all should feel sorry for yourself. Today a dear friend of mine passed away from cancer. I was thinking about all the different types of illness and diseases. But depression seems to be a one person thing. You know we dont do races to cure or foundations. I dont know how my mind came to thinking that im selfiish after hearing the news. I know im not selfish and i should think of others and be more supportive and I do. But today I cant tell if im sad the friend passed away or sad because of the depression. My emotioins are mixed up. Sorry if this sounds confusing im kinda confused myself. Do you have wars with yourself? Do you think Depression is selfsish? I'm not trying to be rude Ive never thought this way before. I Dont think that anyone is selfish I just maybe think of my own depression as selfish.

I do have wars with myself, some days are worse then others though. Most recently my wars has been my mind has been taunting me that I am about to lose everything that I have worked towards and that I am slipping backwards again. For me it really feels like a battle where I am trying I keep my head above water. I don't think depression is selfish, on the surface it can appear that way but there is always something deeper driving it even if you don't know it yourself...

[Lost in this world]

Originally Posted by Horsegirl72794

I do have wars with myself, some days are worse then others though. Most recently my wars has been my mind has been taunting me that I am about to lose everything that I have worked towards and that I am slipping backwards again. For me it really feels like a battle where I am trying I keep my head above water. I don't think depression is selfish, on the surface it can appear that way but there is always something deeper driving it even if you don't know it yourself...

I didnt think I was the only one who has wars with there mind. See Ive never thought about depression as selfish until today and it came kinda as a shock. But now my mind is not letting that feeling go away!

You aren't alone in that for sure. Right now I am trying to get up the courage to tell someone about it so I don't have to go through it alone. Do you have a T? Maybe you should tell them about this so they can help you work through it. It's funny how the mind can latch onto something and totally distort it. For me calling myself out on it helps, just to realize that what my mind is telling me isn't the truth allows me to push through thoughts I'm having. Can't believe everything you think!

[Lost in this world]

Oh I have a T I plan on sharing it

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