[unplugmealready]

Recently I have done nothing but dwell on the past. No matter how big or small. I keep not taking my pills, I just feel like they hold me back. I am currently listening to really depressing music amd dwelling on how sh***y things are in my life. 3 years ago I fell from a wagon and ripped my nerves in my arm. Since then physical work is not possible for me. I now work in tech support (IT) and I hate it. I dread the calls, I dread speaking to the users and I clock watch. I can't find any decent jobs, there is very little that I can do. I have no real qualifications and hate my whole situation. how do you get out of something like this? Sometimes I feel that "the easy way out" is the only option. If it wasn't for my beautiful children and how bad I feel about leaving them forever then I probably wouldn't be here today. I rememeber when I was younger I swore I would die at 27 like Curt Cobain and Hendrix. I made it to 31. But its a hard slog. Why do we exist really? What is the point in this meaningless existence??!! Sorry. Rant over.

[glok]

Hello, unplugmealready. Please consider getting professional help.

I wish you well.

[unplugmealready]

Thanks glok. I know I really should. I put it off too often.