[therealme]

i dont feel safe, i want to cry, i want to scream.... i have thought about ringing the mental health helpline but that is admitting i cant handle myself. i dont even want to tell my wife that im close to my edge.
dont know why im writing this here , im sorry.

[DaveyJones]

A question: If you were having a heart attack, would you not go to the emergency room because you couldn't perform a heart bypass on yourself?

Mental illness is just that; an illness, like heart disease or cancer or anything else. It doesn't make you bad, it doesn't make you incompetant. It doesn't mean that you are weak or worthless. (Yes, I know you feel like you are all these things, but that doesn't make it so).

Please, talk to the helpline; they can help you feel better. Talk to your wife; she loves you, and will do anything she can to help you if you give her the chance.

I hope that you feel better soon; I know how awful it can be. But please, please don't try to do this alone.

Hugs,
DJ

[therealme]

davey, i first would like to say thank you for your words, im not the best with emotions and talking to people scares me, i am feeling very weak at the moment, everything is happening at once today, nah, the last few days.
my CPN doesnt help and my suport worker said he would ring back but never did, my faith in the mental health team is low to none.
if i ring the helpline what will they do, tell me to relax and see my cpn as soon as possible !!, my wife knows how i feel because she is also a member here on PC , i know she has read my post as she cant look at me and is close to tears in the other room , again i have upset the one that truely loves me (including my parents)
do i feel alone and worthless ? the answer is yes
do i feel unsafe and scared ? the answer again is yes

[DaveyJones]

Boy, I guess you would have no faith in the mental health team, I wouldn't either. I am so sorry to hear what's going on with you, all I can say is that we are here for you. I hope you and your wife can help each other through this...I do know how hard that is. My ex and I both suffer from bipolar disorder.

My thoughts and prayers are with you both...

Davey

PS. Can you just show up at an emergency room there like we do here?

[JustAPixie]

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[Bethsway]

Great advice from DaveyJones...please get help...you may feel alot better!!!

[therealme]

thank you davey, for giving me some good advice.
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[Perna]

Can you ground yourself at all; remind yourself the world is going on as "usual" and there's nothing to be afraid of -- go for a walk? I like looking outside, watching the grass grow, pulling a weed in the garden, something physical like that (even paying attention to the chair fabric where I'm sitting), just looking at little "real" things while I relax my shoulders and breathe deeply. I try to get out of my head a little. If I can find a book to read or "project" (doing the dishes, making cookies or something simple like that, cleaning up a mess in some "corner"/my office or bedroom, even just organizing things on my computer) it gets me out of myself a bit and back into a more normal set of feelings. Sometimes I can get interested in something (my school work or something online) and that helps too.

(((therealme))) I don't like asking for help either/admitting "defeat."

[therealme]

thank you perna, small tasks like reading and even writing seems like such big chores when im feeling down, i only want to shut down and veg in a comfy chair, and feel sorry for myself.
thats when my mind starts to wonder.... and i remember the one's i have hurt in the past, i then feel even lower untill i cant take it anymore.

[Bethsway]

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[therealme]

((((((beth)))))) thank you i need a hug today