[lonerpea]

Divorced Single mom, 31. Two Kids.

My kids don't even want to be around me, I'm the couch mom. I say, "i'm watching this" when they try to talk to me.

I cry washing dishes.

I have one friend, I really don't like her that much, but she's my only friend. She's the only one that ever calls me.

My mother in law loves me more than my own mom. I told her last night how hard of a time I was having. She wants me to get help, I did...today. My appointment isn't until next Monday.

First time in a psych ward when I was 14, last time I was 23 getting divorced. Everyone stays at a distance now, afraid to trigger me.

I still have custody, I still am able to maintain a somewhat normal life. I have to work, I have to pay the bills, I have to take my kids to school, I have to feed the kids. I know what HAS to be done.

I still cry at night, I still push everyone away. LEAVE ME ALONE!! LEAVE ME ALONE, well...they have. There's no one left.

[(JD)]

Yes, the "Leave me alone! Don't go!" cry is common unfortunately I'm glad you are going to get help. You didn't mention the ages of your children, but if they are old enough to know there's something wrong with mommy, then it would be good to say you are going to work on feeling better...to let them know and have hope too What kind of doctor will you be seeing, is it for talk therapy or medicine? IMO you might need both to help pull you up to a more functional level.

I hope the doctors get it right this time, and you won't have many more psych ward situations in the future.

[dcs_no1_fan]

(((((lonerpea)))))

I hope that everything goes well for you on monday & that you get all the help that you need

Take Care

[Bethsway]

(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) and welcome to PC...hope you find the support you are looking for here...!! hello!