I'd been on 10mg of Paxil for a year, and I recently (two weeks ago) increased it to 12.5mg. The Paxil helped my panic attacks, which is the reason I've been clinging to it. I had no apparent side effects from being on the 10mg. But after changing to 12.5, it seems that I'm more depressed. I don't know if I actually /am/ more depressed, or if I just think I am, or if the Paxil is actually causing it. It might not be. Sometimes I just feel more depressed than usual.

It's my first year in college, I live in a dorm by myself because my roommate moved out, and I haven't really made any friends. I've never really had any friends ever in my life so I wasn't expecting to make any. I have classes at 8 in the morning and when my alarm goes off I just feel this deep depression set in the very second that I wake up and I feel like I just want to fade away and give up on everything.

I've been feeling physically sick as well, and I don't know if that's from the medication or not. I haven't thrown up but there's just this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.

I have no appetite... just the thought of food makes me feel sick. But I don't want to lose weight, so it's seriously frustrating because I just DON'T want to eat.

I don't know what I'm looking for... it's probably not even my medication causing this... because I've been depressed for seven years... but I just feel so hopeless. It's a vicious circle; I'm lonely, but I'm too shy and too much of a misanthropist to make friends; I don't want to be depressed, but I'm too uncomfortable to see a therapist. I don't want to live anymore. I'm tired of it.

[atomicc]

When I went away to college I went through the same thing. I didn't have many friends and I was so depressed, I slept through the day constantly. Maybe going away isn't for you? I don't know anything about the medication but maybe talk to your doctor about these feelings? I hope you feel better soon!

[gayleggg]

I know how you feel. I'm tired of it too.

I wouldn't think that the Paxil would cause you feel that physically ill with such a small raise in dosage, but you should really check with your doctor.

Being shy makes it difficult to make friends, especially, along with the depression. I would definitely suggest counseling even though it makes you uncomfortable. If you are going to make friends you are going to have to go out of your comfort zone.

Best wishes and hope you feel better soon.

Originally Posted by atomicc

When I went away to college I went through the same thing. I didn't have many friends and I was so depressed, I slept through the day constantly. Maybe going away isn't for you? I don't know anything about the medication but maybe talk to your doctor about these feelings? I hope you feel better soon!

But even if I didn't go to college I'd still be depressed. :/ Nothing would change. So it's like I can't win. Yeah, maybe I'll mention it to my doctor. Thanks for replying.