[Secret81]

I don't want to live with this pain anymore. I understand everyone has some pain or heartache in their lives. I even get that some people went through things far worse than I. Maybe they are just stronger than me. I feel beaten, worn, and used. Like all the life has been sucked out of me and I have nothing positive to give anyone. I would never do something as to end my own pain and hurt the people that do care especially my three children. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I feel the pain will never stop. This darkness will never end. Is there ever a way out?

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[darkrunner]

I'm sorry you are in so much pain.
I know it doesn't feel like that, but it will get better. You won't feel this way forever. Are you getting any help or taking any medications?

Hang in there.

[shortandcute]

Lots of hugs to you. I know--its hard living with pain.

[herethennow]

loads of hug to you. Been in that place some weeks ago, and I felt that there's no end to it. Hope that some relief would come to you soon.

[jk2833]

Hi I too live in constant pain,along with my mental health problems I have ME, arthritis and fibromyalgia topped off with a mini stroke back in January.
I totally understand when you say you don't want to live with the pain anymore but like me we have our children as our protective factors.
As much as we want it all to end we could never do that to the kids.
Not a day goes by that I think about ending it, but you can't, some days your stronger than others and sometimes you just get so fed up of living an existence not a life.
Don't give up you've come this far, your stronger than you think

Take care

J

[Fuzzybear]

[winter4me]

Now and then, the clouds will part and give you a glimpse, even a sense, of joy---had you never felt that, you would not know just how painful it is to be powerless to break through the darkness...Hang on to the small pleasures. Lots of us feel the same---it is strange, isn't it---so many of us so alone and struggling and yet, well, we are alone together in some sense...we are all around us and don't know...can't touch... Or can we?

so sorry your life is feeling so dark. Keep the hope that it will get better. I was extremely sick for very many years and felt the same way as you at times, but I am so glad I held on and can now enjoy my life again. You can get through this

Secret81 - I pretty much feel exactly the same way.

I hope you find some strength, or find *something* that can make you smile..... and STAY with whatever that smiling-thing is.

I too really do not give a ____ if I live or not. 90% of me would prefer to not be here anymore. It is only the desire to see grandkids some day that gives me any desire to live.

I am not trying to bring you down.... my point is find SOMETHING that important to your soul and focus on that.

Hang in there. You are not alone.

[catsrhelm]

Secret81, have you thought about seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist? I know it can be hard to ask for help, but once you do, you will feel better. Sounds like you are suffering from depression, so visit the depression forum.