[PrisonBound]

I hate them. I can't say enough.
My wife usually works. I have no friends. My teenager is usually working or running around.

I have so much to do around the house, but just can't. I'm a runner and work out, but on the weekends, I'm lucky to take a shower. I can't explain. I dread them. Once in awhile I'll get lucky and force myself to go for a run...but that's rare....most of the time, I shut all the curtains and won't leave the bed and load up on ativan.

If it wasn't for my family, I'd add a fifth of scotch to the mix just to sleep it away. By Friday, I'm a mess, because I know what's coming. It sucks. So tired of living this way. It's not living

[Jacki~]

So, whatz it going to be? I read that you are a runner and work out, must be a strong, reliable guy......... What else could you do for someone else on the weekend? What one thing could you do to give of yourself?
I read "IF it wasn't for my family"......... what could you do for them? What one thing?

[Rohag]

Hello, PrisonBound!

Have you been able to isolate why weekends trigger you so? Does having less structure on the weekend have something to do with it?

[shortandcute]

I just wanted to say hi and ask how things are going for you.

[PrisonBound]

Thanks for asking

Weekends are better....improving I'd say. Up and down. From therapy, I've realized it stems from my childhood....junior high ....I wasn't very popular and remember friday nights all my friends going out and I was never invited. Despite having friends and a great family now, I've never dealt w those feelings. Once I started talking about it in therapy, I started crying immediately! I was shocked.

The good news is I'm learning to cope, and am not relying on ativan ..I should say I don't need it right now. This past weekend was awful, but overall, I'm making progress...I think.