Seems like despite wanting to change and be different, I can't. I piss people off and I don't even mean to. I can't even begin to explain, I've never felt like this before. I can't handle this ****.

[MarlboroChick]

Everyone pisses people off, but not everyone you piss off matters. If they do, can you apologize and tell them what you wrote here? That your trying to change, and ask them to be patient?
What do you think you do that makes people angry?

Originally Posted by Horsegirl72794

Seems like despite wanting to change and be different, I can't. I piss people off and I don't even mean to. I can't even begin to explain, I've never felt like this before. I can't handle this ****.

Sorry. I've been pissing people off without understanding why for years. Usually because I'm so lacking in self-confidence that I always try to take up as little of somebody's time as possible..I just automatically assume that my presence is a burden and that they'd like to get rid of me as quickly as possible. Then, they get angry because they think I'm being stand-offish or rude or disinterested, and I'm unable to tell them that I really don't mean to be rude, but that I just didn't want to waste their time. Anyway, probably not the same as your situation, but I hope you feel better!

Originally Posted by MarlboroChick

Everyone pisses people off, but not everyone you piss off matters. If they do, can you apologize and tell them what you wrote here? That your trying to change, and ask them to be patient?
What do you think you do that makes people angry?

This time it's someone who really matters, she is my mentor and we have been friends for about 3 years. We are having a meeting on Tuesday and we are suppose to talk about this then, so I will try to apologize. The thing is she knows I have been trying to change, I think she is frustrated that I am not changing fast enough. I don't respond we'll to questions and such because I ha e really bad social anxiety, so my mind spazzes out when I have to answer a direct question and I know that frustrates her. I have gotten a lot ether but it still isn't enough I guess...

Originally Posted by OPRMC

they get angry because they think I'm being stand-offish or rude or disinterested, and I'm unable to tell them that I really don't mean to be rude

I have a really hard with that too, I think that's my main problem and its so frustrating for me

[themonster7]

Everybody has some sort of importance. Just please remember that. Don't be done, please don't give up. Giving up only makes this disease worse. Please keep fighting. For everybody on here. People don't understand me either because of my social anxiety. I get it. I drove off the one person I could tell my problems too, but she is back now, and I see her once a week. Things get better. Just please don't be done.

Originally Posted by themonster7

Everybody has some sort of importance. Just please remember that. Don't be done, please don't give up. Giving up only makes this disease worse. Please keep fighting. For everybody on here. People don't understand me either because of my social anxiety. I get it. I drove off the one person I could tell my problems too, but she is back now, and I see her once a week. Things get better. Just please don't be done.

Thank you for your support. I just feel so dejected and hurt right now. I'm tired of fighting, I'm not strong enough anymore, I can't keep this up and I don't know what to do about it.

[themonster7]

If you go by the same time zone as me then I suggest you just sleep. Sunrise doesn't last all day, all things must pass. Just remember that things can get better. I was just as bad off as you were at one point, and then one day I randomly got motivated, now I'm only really down when I've been drinking. Life really can have meaning just please try to believe me. We all care about you.

I did end up going to bed, thank you for responding last night it really did help.

[themonster7]

I'm so glad it did!