[manalee]

Hi, I've been suffering from moderate to severe depression for the last year or so, combined with serious anxiety. Recently it feels like my life is falling apart. I fight with my family and my boyfriend (possible ex due to a fight we had last night that I escalated) and while i know, that some of the time i'm justified in my anger, I'm fully aware that the rest of the time I am being completely irrational. I feel like no one hears me, friend support is basically nonexistent and I am completely overwhelmed by even the simplest things. I've been on and off antidepressants for the last year, went off them for a bit because I was feeling better but recently when I tried prozac for the second time i experienced violent mood swings. I'm seeing a therapist in a few weeks for a med evaluation because I just can't take this anymore. I feel like I have no where to turn, no support, and no one who understands. This is way more rambling than i intended but it feels like my brain is on overdrive and I just can't focus. Anyway, not entirely sure what I want out of posting this...maybe i just need to know that I'm not the only one, that it will get better and that everything will be okay.

[pegasus]

Hello manalee, welcome to Psych Central!

I think it's helpful to put it out there, you'll realize thast you are not alone in your feelings and there are a lot of truely understanding people here. Keep writing.

[manalee]

thank you, i appreciate that. i just feel like there isn't anyone i can talk to. i love my boyfriend or whatever we are so much but i'm not entirely sure he gets where i'm coming from. and unfortunately, since we got together 6 months ago he's seen me at some of my lowest points. and i haven't always been at my best. talking to my family is out because they are part of the problem and the friends i had have basically left me behind because i've been in such s bad place mentally. i really don't know where to go any more.