Alone

I know this is a common theme so many of you will understand. I feel really alone. I have social anxiety so I don't have a lot if friends. The few that I do have are on a pretty superficial level because I having trouble being intimate with people.

But when this depression really hit I felt alone any wanted to feel like someone cared. In the past I would have relied on my t but she had started to shut me out. So I did something huge for me and emailed my mom telling her I was really depressed and couldn't get out if bed. She emailed back saying "try to do something" and I have 't heard from her since. That was 3 weeks ago. She has 't asked how I am or anything.

I also reached out to a friend and she hasn't been there either.

Obviously how my mom is is the reason I have trouble getting close to people.

The problem is when I am not so depressed I don't want to be around people. And when I am depressed I don't want a real friendship. I am needy and want someone to swoop in an take care of me. That's not going to happen.

It is hard.

I can totally relate too you. I don't have friends and my family don't really care. My husband try to be there but i don't want to burden him with my stuff. I am alone and i hate it but cant seem to get it fixed

so sorry to hear that.

I'm real sorry your mom couldn't be there for you. That sucks. But you have come to the right place for support and comfort. I can understand your depression, since that's where I'm at too. I am the opposite of you in that when I'm depressed I prefer to suffer alone. Some days it takes all I have to post on here, but I force myself to because I believe the support I get here somehow make the depression a little easier to take.

There is no doubt that depression sucks. Hope you are better soon.

:/ It's tough when your mom can't give you the support you need, I have a similar situation so I know how hurtful it can be. I'm also really needy when I'm depressed..but then I can't think of a single person who I would be brave enough to bother with my problems. :/ I hope that you start feeling better. Maybe take yourself out alone somewhere to try and relax, like a movie?

I know how painful it is when our mothers reject us. I've been there.... It does create attachment issues....