[jacq10]

I hate being sick. Being sick just seems to make everything else that already seems unbearable... just that much worse. Lately i've been making some pretty significant decisions in what i'm going to be taking (i.e. going from a Bsc to a BA) and so that has been so stressful, not to mention that my parents are completly against it and are successfully making me feel like %#@&#! about it. Anyways, tonight i was on the phone with my mom (telling her about my decision) and after I got off the phone i started having another coughing attack, except this on ended up in me bawling and hyperventillating because i got so upset. But it was so scary because i didn't even see it coming, it just happend ... and now i feel like crap, and i have three midterms this week.. and i just can't do it. I can't bring myself to focus on calculus or physics, or whatever. Its just like i can't shut my brain off and just let myself do something because continuously worry or be upset about something. Does anybody have any suggestions on how i can stop these depressive attacks, and focus more on whats important? I've already tried all of the breathing techniques... so i dont know what do do....

[Christina86]

((((((((Jacqueline))))))))

I'm so sorry. I think parents should really consider that what they tell their kids (when its negative) really doesn't help anything. (I was told something that made me feel horrible and useless by my mom today).

I know you said you tried some breathing techniques, have you tried doing something enjoyable or to get your mind off of your upcoming midterms? Do stretches, drink some tea or something hot, take a bath or watch a funny movie? I know that trying to not think about and study for midterms is hard work - but trying to study for an exam where you're not giving it a lot of attention really isn't all that worth it.

*hugs* take care of yourself and please feel free to PM me whenever. I know that university is hard junk, and dealing with other stuff too - just makes it worse.