[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Very depressing, so read at your peril.

I'm sure listening to depressing music has done me no favors tonight, but neither has losing 200GB+ of data, a lot of which being very personal. I cling onto so much stuff, and it's just, ... why? I'm going to ****ing die anyway, so why bother? Not to mention, as I so wonderfully reminded myself, data can be lost in a huge amount of ways. I just feel like crap. I've not *** in 4 years or so, but right now I just got a strong urge to, and imagined, ... things. I haven't felt this lost in a long time. I feel hopeless, like there's no ****ing point in anything. Why do I bother. Even this is pointless, ... so what, you'll see this, and I'll have accomplished, what exactly? Still going to die, I will still be alone, miserable, and angry at so much. I've still let people down. I've still been let down. Nothing will change that. I feel completely powerless. I'm getting therapy for my OCD, and that's suppose to be a good thing? How much of my life is going to be wasted, trying to be like those normal people out there? I've already wasted 27 years, like this. Maybe I need to just have kids, and get a sense of life from that, but oh wait, .. I can't, .. because I'm a ****tard, and relationships scare the crap out of me, ... perfect recipe for a family. But of course, I can't talk about this in therapy, because that's just for OCD. ¬_¬

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Zwangsstörung

...losing 200GB+ of data, a lot of which being very personal.

That is traumatic. That is a loss. That's the kind of loss I personally would not be able to skip mourning.

I'm sorry.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Thanks. xD I can't tell if you're being sarcastic, though, ... it's not just that, that made me feel that way (moment has kind-of passed, or shoved under the bed) but it was sorta like, ... the thing that kicked off other feelings and stuff.

[themonster7]

I know how you're feeling. It happens to me quite often. I randomly hear something about death and suddenly there seems to be no point in anything, because no matter what it's all going to end. I've gone months straight of not being able to think anything except that, but it turns around eventually. You're in a bad place right now and I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. Everybody dies, but it IS possible to enjoy some things in life. It may not seem like it right now but eventually it will get better. Now turn off that sad music! It's doing more harm than good.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Yeah, I agree. I find there's nothing I can do when I'm like that, other than go with the usual distraction and relaxation techniques.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Zwangsstörung

I can't tell if you're being sarcastic, though...

I'm sorry for the lack of clarity. I intended no sarcasm. For me the loss of significant data has been/would be a real loss. "Mourning" usually implies the loss of a loved one or friend, but I've used it here to refer to the extended emotional disturbance in the wake of losing something important. I certainly would not be able come away unshaken from the kind of incident you describe.

Again, my regrets over your loss of data.