[mingwu1994]

I'm a sophomore college student. Ever since the last year when i had my biggest setback in my life so far, I just do not believe in myself or the future. If the life is all about pain, why should I keep going. Hope to talk someone who has same experience.

[wiltedxdaisy]

I feel like this a lot, you are not alone. I think it's important when you're feeling this way to just try and find joy in the little things. Such a seeing a pretty flower, watching a sunset, petting an animal, listening to a song you like, etc. Also, you could try to make of list of some of the things you like about yourself (sometimes you really have to think on this one, but hopefully you can come up with some stuff!) Also, some things you have accomplished in life. Such as going to college. That's huge, especially when you're dealing with something like depression! Another list you could try to make is list of goals for the future. You might not be sure of exactly what you want, but just put down whatever pops into your head. Start with little goals and work your way up. There is hope for you and for your future and I hope that you will see it soon. Please do not give up. You are worth so much. I hope some of this was helpful to you. Also, if you wish you talk more please feel free to contact me, I DO understand.

I am more than willing to talk... to listen... to put out some ideas for you.

BUT - I am not "always in pain". I would say moreso that I am always numb to the world..... like I do not feel anything anymore. I simply exist, kinda like my soul died a few years ago - but my body was too stupid to die too.

[gayleggg]

I'm on the same page. I'm stuck in pain that doesn't seem to want to go away. Some of the time I'm like Useless me and feel numb. Just got back from my pdoc and he has me doing more med changes. I just wish I had the faith that any of them will work. Nothing has so far.