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I am dragi g. I am sad as ever. I lost big and know I lost. everyone around my life sees how much i lost and i know it. I am lost and know it. I am so lost. I cant believe larry had that energy to destroy a person. I didn;'t want to hurt him and he plunged me down the junk heap. Man it hurts me i am lost an lost and losing i am so so sad and want to lay down i don't know how come he was so mean to me i want' that rotten. he must of tryed to dump me ritg way and maybe i wasn't listening now the way he dumped me was embarrassing me and now i am dissassoating so bad i can see how ugly i am getting i am getting so ugly i am so ashamed and ugly i am so bad i am at the bottom of the heap and going down more and more gosh i am bad

All I know is it will get better... whatever happened surely wasn't about you.. it sounds like its bad on him...don't be so hard on yourself...

Hang in there... Faith

razeljenny...

I'm so sory things are spiraling out of control right now. I really care and hurt with you. Do you have a T that you an call? or any grounding and coping mechanisms. Maybe a day of funny DVDs and your favorite pjs. You really are a good soul.