[ClassyLady31]

No matter how hard you try to fix things in your head some things will always remain broken. I've done everything I could to forgive my family and to prevent my anger and resentments from getting the best of me. I've let a lot of things go, actually I let too many of their mistakes go. I've forgiven to the point I cannot forgive anymore. I cannot take the pain they have caused me anymore and therefore Im letting go of my family. It wouldn't be so bad if they would just stop trying to control my life and take evedrything they can from me. We could've made things right, we could've fixed things but every time i turn around they stab me in my back. Then they wonder why i dont want them apart of my life anymore. I can't allow myself to let them hurt me anymore.... AND I WONT:

[too SHy]

I hear you. My family just abandoned me, and that hurts.
What I have found is anger only hurts me. But forgiveness has been very hard, the emotions are intensely painful. Good luck to you

** Same here - but only to a degree.

I wont go into my specifics - they really do not matter. But yesterday was my mothers birthday and I brought over the obligatory small gift and visited for an hour or so. But have the time I was there.... watching her as she talked (not really listening to her) - I was torn over the "i love her" and "how could she let those things happen".

I think that conflict tears us apart.

so I will just say - BEST WISHES TO YOU.

i will never forgive my family for everything they put me through.

they should be ashamed of themselves- especially since even before i was diagnosed, i wasn't even cared about by them.

that was then, and nothing's changed..

[Phoobear]

I can relate to this. I can not move on what my mom did to me and also what i did to her. The hatred i live with each day is tearing my hole life apart. She is my mom how could you do that to your own blood? I am so scared that i will become the some and that again brings up its own issues. How do you forgive and forget?

[ClassyLady31]

I won't ever forget those nights I spent alone crying myself to sleep because my parents never cared. I finally realized that there's nothing more I can do except to let go. It's hard to forgive and to forget, but it's the best thing we can do for ourselves.

It sucks that so many people go through so much pain starting at a young age, the sad thing is it's mostly caused from our family...

What a messed up world this is..