[retwit]

Hello there,
First of all, I am not sure if this posts should be here or in relationships

I am a 21 years old boy.
When I has a teenager, I had little friends, little social life, no girlfriend and no sex, neither a kiss!
When I was 19, I had some more friends, but no girlfriend neither girl friends, I was "tired" of being lonely, and I was tired of "not having fun" having sex. So I had sex with a prostitute, that was my first time, and I had sex with other prostitutes for 2 years.
Now, I have a girlfriend, we have been together for 7 months, we love each other. The sex is great and she is very lusty, and so do I.
2 weeks ago we were talking about our past, I told her I lost my virginity at 19, and that I had no girlfriend neither nothing close before, and she told me we were very different, that she lost her virginity at 14, she had 3 boyfriends but when she was single, she was having sex with friends. And, a week later, we were talking about fantasies, and I told her we could have sex in a forest, and after a few questions, she told me she have already done it 3 times, in a park, in a forest and in a car.
The thing is that thinking of her having fun when she was 16, 17, 18, having sex with friends, having sex in a park, etc. makes me very sad and down. When she told me she had sex at 14, and then she had sex with friends, I couldn't eat for 1 week, I was sad, I didn't have "energy" to do anything, but now I am better, but still a bit sad and down. Then I asked (yes.. my fault) and she told me she had sex in a park and I feel down again.

I think this is kind of jealous or envy, but I know this is something about the past, and there is nothing wrong, and I trust on her. This is something about me.
I think I am sad about my past, about someone (specially someone very close like my girlfriend) having sex and fun when I was not. I wanted to have that fun, I wanted to have had sex when I was a teenager, have sex with some girl friend, I wanted to have a "friend with benefits", go out at night, end up in a park, nobody around and have sex. but I didn't. yes.. this is envy...

I talk to her, but not much, I only told her "I am sad because everyone was having fun, having their first girlfriend/boyfriend, but i wasn't". I don't want her to think it is something like "her fault" or to feel sorry or bad about what she did when she was a teenager (which is fine). She told me to be happy of being what I am now, that the past is sometimes cruel, but we can't do anything about that. Enjoy the present.

What do you think? what can I do? I think writing this made me better

Thanks

[Voxx]

I'm going to be 24 soon and I have never been within 5 metres of a women, I don't know what they feel like, taste like, what a kiss is or what the emotion of love is. Doesn't matter what it is, there is always somebody worse of than you in the world. You just have to pay your dues and deal with life, I don't care if I am going to die a virgin its just the way things are.

What she did isn't as good as you think it is. You got a childhood and time to enjoy the simple things in life before you entered adulthood forever. She had sex far to young, I think you should be happy with how things are now.

The past is just memories, enjoy your present, what difference does it make now how much sex you had in the past?

[adam_k]

Teenage girls and guys are very different. GUY Are like predators on the hunt and girls constantly have to shoot them down. Sometimes people want to have fun and just go with things.

If things were reversed and it was you that was hooking up with people back then would it matter about her past?

You can't change what happened and brooding over it is going to cause yourself anguish. Try to accept that she has had different experiences than you, but know she wants to be with you. If those experiences were all amazing then she would still be doing that. Being that she has been dating you for months sounds like those things aren't as good as what she has with you.

Try to feel good that you can enjoy eachothers company. You may have been lonely back then and lacked experience but you have it now. Try not to beat yourself up for not hooking up with people in your teens. It doesn't make you anyless of a person and I doubt she thinks less of you for it.

You get to know someone enough and you learn about all kinds of things that are hard to deal with. I've been married for 6 years and everything has come out from our past on both sides. The key to to accept each other even if they made mistakes or has different experiences.

[ToeJam]

Couldn't have said it better than Adam

[retwit]

Thanks all for the replies, they really helped

[retwit]

I just want to tell you that I was felling pretty well, and I had some thoughts about my girlfriend past that I couldn't get off my head, but as I was not felling down, I decided yo ask her all those thoughts I had in my head.

I asked her, and she answered. And I felt better than the last time. I think some doubts and making some assumptions where making me fell down. But having asked her, I think it was better for me.
For a moment I thought it was going to make me worst

Thanks.