[BlackFeather]

I feel like no one in my life actually cares. My family has no clue about what has being going on with me. Only two people have ever actually told me that they've cared about me, and that was only within the past year. One of them is the counselor I've been going to at school. But, I'm afraid that when people say that they care about me, they don't actually mean it. Sometimes, it's kind of really hard for me to trust others and it's been really hard to me to tell this counselor things or even to believe that I can get better.

She seems really nice and I have told her a few things that I thought she would be able to understand and not judge me. I think she's only about 3-4 years older than me, so I think I can relate to her. We only get a set amount of appointments for each student each semester, which I can understand, but I'm almost at my limit. I'm afraid that once I'm unable to go anymore, this girl will stop caring about me because she won't need to anymore. I think seeing her has definitely helped my depression a little bit, but once I stop going to see her, the sadness will take over again and I'll be right back where I started.

[Staple]

I feel the same. Lots of people tell me they care about me, but it's always meaningless to me because I don't feel like they understand me. I also don't feel like psychologists have ever understood me either, and that they don't care about me when I'm not sitting there talking to them. I've just come to accept this I guess.

We also have limits on student sessions per semester. I try my best to just spread them out throughout the semester if possible. I haven't actually seen my therapist in about six months, but I think I might go back soon. For me, I guess the benefit is that I just have someone to talk to.

[Rohag]

Hello, BlackFeather.

Originally Posted by BlackFeather

I think seeing her has definitely helped my depression a little bit, but once I stop going to see her, the sadness will take over again and I'll be right back where I started.

A legitimate concern. Please consider talking both to your counselor and to the center staff about options for a longer-term arrangement. Even if the counseling helps only a little bit, it may have a progressively greater effect over time, so it's valuable to get that time.

Originally Posted by BlackFeather

... this girl will stop caring about me because she won't need to anymore.....

Not to be too nit-picky, but caring about someone and "needing" them are two very different things.

You said that you believe she cares for you. My gut feeling is that you are right - that she does care about you as a person. NOT as a "number" or a quota that she has to fill.

[han73]

Hi, I am also someone that feels similar to you, that no one cares but its your interpretation of someone or people not caring about you, which is more than likely not true. And yes I would back up Rohag and try to find out some longer term form of counselling so if you are not able to talk to this person least you have another alternative.