Lack of Communication

Hello,

I really feel like there is something wrong with me, like I have no personality. There's always a lot going on in my head but few words come out.

I had talked about this with my therapist (who is no longer my therapist but that is a long story). She says this is normal, being an adult child of an alcoholic.

When I was younger I would stuff my feelings inside and become numb to the what was going on around me. This doesn't serve me well today and has become quite painful.

I'm a little bit on the shy side. The few friends I do have - I am very close to. But I would like to make more.

Sometimes when I am at work- I'm aware of how little I have to say and that just makes it worse, being self conscious of it.

I wish the words would just come out easily, but they don't.

It also frightens me, the lack of communication between my husband and myself. His conversation seems to consist of work and bills. He is a workaholic. I pay my bills and shut up about it. There is more to life than work and bills.

My mother, on the other hand, has no problem in sharing her feelings.

I just wonder what is wrong with me.......
Can antidepressants do this?

Has this only started since you started taking antidepressants? Some of them can cause a flat affect. Sounds like couples counseling might help with you and your husband. I don't know if this started before or after the antidepressants but it couldn't hurt either way.

Yes, as Gayleggg says, antidepressants may cause or contribute to flat affect. Your history and shyness may certainly also play into what you are experiencing.

Have you looked into shyness/self-esteem/social phobia resources?
PsychCentral: Self-Esteem & Shyness