[Phoobear]

My only friend told me today that our friendship is empty and that it would be better if we don't talk anymore. Every time when i open up to someone i always get hurt. They don't understand the why how i am. To be alone is very difficult. At least i have a husband that loves me. It also hurts more because i feel guilty. Maybe i am supposed to be alone. I just don't have the spirit to fight for her friendship. I did it to myself nobody else to blame. Just needed to tell someone how i am feeling today.

[manwithnofriends]

well your husband loves you so you do have a friend

[Pierro]

Friendship is a two way relationship. There's give and take. Your best friend is your husband. You are lucky. That was a very harsh statement your "friend" made. I wonder would a real friend say something like that. True friends are so hard to come by.

[gayleggg]

I, agree, with Pierro. That was a very harsh statement your "friend" made. It is hard to find people that understand us. Don't be so hard on yourself. I doubt it is all your fault. Doesn't sound like she was a very good friend anyway. I'm glad you have your husband. Keep posting. We are here for you.

[Phoobear]

I thought she was the person to be myself not a mask on. She also have bipolar. But every time i really really needed her , she would be nasty about me. Saying that i am over reacting and that i don't know what is really suffering, i know there is people with much bigger fears. She never confine in me just always how she was way back and i don't have a clue what suffering and bipolar an depressed really means. Yes i know i was wrong not to want to have coffee or a lunch or what ever with her. I am just very weird; one of my being fears is to meet face to face. I am better on the chatting stuff. I don't know why that is. So yes i know the friendship was maybe empty too her and i understands. Just how do you leave someone that you know is unstable at this moment? I am trying to write my T a letter this time expressing my feelings / thoughts i hope that would work out better. But maybe losing her is for the better. Yes i will try and change but if you don't except me the way i am then i think its better to just let go. The biggest fear of mine is the rejection. I am struggling my whole life to be a person on my one and not being compared to my sister ( she is mentally disabled). When i actually get it right then something else is not good enough. Sorry for all babbling on about my issues.

[Fuzzybear]