[ThisWayOut]

Every time I think I hit a point where the depression will break and I can come up for air, I feel like I trip and fall on something else. I'm on a fixed income, and my wife is not making too much money (minimum wage with few hours a week). Every month we hope we can do a bit better than the previous month in terms of money, but something else unexpected comes up each time. It really effects my mood because we can't afford to go out even to free events because gas costs too much. I have to "call out" of volunteering this month because we just don't have the cash for all that extra gas. It's the only thing that gets me out of the house and distracted. We barely have enough money to get food this month... ugh.
My head's also been in a crappy space and I'm having trouble stepping out of it. I am supposed to check in with my T on Tuesday (she works Tu-Sa), but I don't know if I really want to be honest again (sent her some stuff to read on Friday). I'm just so tired of this cycle of fighting the depression and struggling to find anything positive in life. I'm all excited that my mom's negative energy is out of the house for the weekend, but my wife is just as cranky as my mom (noticing that the energy in the house is still just as negative even with m gone)...
I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm taxing my T with my constant neediness. I just want it all gone.

[gayleggg]

Sorry you are having it so tough. I, too, feel like the depression just weighs me down so far I can't get up some days. I know it must be hard to not be able to get out of the house. Wish your wife and your mom didn't have such negative affect on you. I know that makes it that much worse. Hang in there.

[Rohag]

Your financial state is "depressing" all on its own.

Originally Posted by MdngtRain

I have to "call out" of volunteering this month because we just don't have the cash for all that extra gas. It's the only thing that gets me out of the house and distracted.

Your volunteering is important to you. It seems this is something to try to hold on to. How could you volunteer or how could you get to your volunteer service without it costing you money?

[ThisWayOut]

Unfortunately, the places near to me take you to pay a "training and materials fee" to be able to volunteer for them (at least the places that interest me for volunteering. I prefer working behind the scenes with animals as opposed to working with people). The only place that let us slide in the free Is the place we now volunteer, and its 20-some miles away. Therapy is also far, so when I have to choose between gas for therapy and gas for volunteering, therapy wins out (at least the way my head is at this time, therapy must win out)...
And yeah, our financial situation is really depressing. I just have no idea how to improve it. The state says we make too much money to qualify for assistance, but we still don't have enough money to live. It sucks.