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Old Nov 12, 2013, 02:33 AM
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Today is not a good day. I feel so empty and dead inside. Like the tears are hiding just behind my eyes.

I just want someone to hug me and make me feel better. But there is no-one that will do that for me. I'm all alone and have to fight through this by myself.

I didn't want to get out of bed today. If I could've just faded away it would've been better then I wouldn't have to sit here living this lie.

I'm so tired of pretending I'm ok. Of fighting so hard just to get through another day. Of being alone all the time. Will I ever meet someone I can love again, or will I be this lonely forever?

I keep hoping everyday that this will be the day things will change. But it stays the same all the time. I'm so tired of being depressed, when will I be happy again?
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 02:39 AM
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This will end, and you will be happy again.
Thanks for this!
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 04:31 AM
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True. It will end. Life may have something fabulous in store for you....
And I know how exhausting this fight is, but everyday you get through is a tiny victory for you. A hard earned one, but be rightfully proud of that. It's what makes us stronger.
Thanks for this!
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 10:16 AM
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We never know what is waiting for us in the future. I know that depression ebbs and flows, I just keep waiting on the next upswing.

Are you seeing a doctor or therapist? A therapist might really help.
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 10:52 AM
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So sorry to hear! I find that at a high dose an antidepressant helps when I'm very depressed. Also, Lamictal and Latuda at high doses help augment the antidepressant. Best of luck!!
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 11:05 AM
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Me too
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 11:12 AM
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Charl S wish I could say something to make you feel.better sending a big hug!!! I don't know how to help since I m crying alot these days, tge guy I care for is dating someone else. I m hoping you feel better soon hugs!!
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 11:56 AM
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Charl, I was in the same boat as you when I was first diagnosed 9 years ago. I was in my first semester away at college and I had become very depressed and felt like nothing good was ever going to happen for me and that I should just end everything. Luckily I had family who noticed that I was spiraling downward and got me the help I needed. I ended up dropping out of school and moving back home to get myself the help I needed. To this day that is the best thing that has ever happened to me, when I moved home I met my the woman I would marry within a few months of being home and enrolling at the local university. We have a son together who turned 1 today. Things will turn around for you, you just have to fight everyday and get the help you need. I am back in a dark place, but I will keep fighting because I know there will be some sort of light at the end of the table.
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Old Nov 12, 2013, 12:31 PM
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Old Nov 15, 2013, 05:46 PM
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Today is not a good day. I feel so empty and dead inside. Like the tears are hiding just behind my eyes.

I just want someone to hug me and make me feel better. But there is no-one that will do that for me. I'm all alone and have to fight through this by myself.

I didn't want to get out of bed today. If I could've just faded away it would've been better then I wouldn't have to sit here living this lie.

I'm so tired of pretending I'm ok. Of fighting so hard just to get through another day. Of being alone all the time. Will I ever meet someone I can love again, or will I be this lonely forever?

I keep hoping everyday that this will be the day things will change. But it stays the same all the time. I'm so tired of being depressed, when will I be happy again?
I know just how u feel. me too
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