[PlanningtoLive]

Hi everyone.

Needed to ramble a bit I think, please bear with me. After my fiasco with the rash caused by the Lamictal, I was switched over last weekend to Tegretol, then when I went to see my doc he switched me to Depakote, 250mg. a day 3x.........

Rash went away, mood swings are more in check, but the depression, or lack of caring, comes from work and home these days.

There are two people at work that I have had to report - one for sexual harassment and one for hostile work environment. The sexual harassment thing I spoke to my supervisor about on many occasions and the guy was "spoken to" about it, numerous times, and it keeps going on..........finally I called the employee hotline number, filed charges, and called my DM.

The other guy is simply a kitchen supervisor, who had the audacity to yell at me and berate me in front of the other employees............again, he was "talked to", but is now being considered for a promotion. HELLOOOOOOOOO, I received no apology, no nothing (actually we are ignoring one another) and my supervisor is considering doing this. He told me that if I wanted to, to write him up - it didn't happen to him, just me, so I could do it. My thought on that was............no support from the General Manager, why waste my time???

I'm putting in so many hours lately at work that Alex is starting to act up - getting mouthy, being difficult.........[sigh]. Course, HE doesn't help any by telling Alex "who knows when your mother will decide to come home".

My input at work is not appreciated, most of the time it is ignored. I hate going in.........everyone comes to me to fix things and I don't have the authority to do it........but they can't talk to the GM, just little ole me.

I'm working on 8 straight days here about 12-14 hours per day and am getting rather cranky.......so I apologize. I'm simply tired and disgusted. Looking for a new job diligently as well.

Off to another 12 hour day...........yay.

Mary Alice

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Put in your eight hours, do your job and then go home. Why should Alex suffer when no one is getting any benefit from your hard work?

Looking for a different job is a good idea, methinks. Hang in there, Sweetie (one of us has to). Wish I could come up with something better but this cold and some crap going on here at home really have me down.

[Fuzzybear]

Your job really sounds like the pits, girl. I hope you find something you like, where they appreciate your talents soon! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Take care,
Fuzzy xx

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Go ahead and ramble and vent all you need to. That's what we're here for.

I think you know this, but you are working harder than anybody expects you to and it's not paying off for you. You do such a great job, people feel like they can come to you with problems, while others like the GM are unapproachable. The employeed like you and know that you will try to help them and not get mad at them or ignore them. But you give more than you really have to give. Working too hard is just going to wear you out. You know what the expectations are - giving more than that just isn't getting you any farther.

You're doing all of this for Alex, but if it doesn't leave you time to be with him and enjoy him and give him the love that he needs from you, then what good is it? You have said before that you are a perfectionist about your work. But what is it that really matters?

Wendy

<font color=orange>"Everyone has a need for significance; and if we can't make that possible, or even probable, in our society, then it will be obtained in destructive ways." -Rollo May</font color=orange>

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Tomi}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} [missed you lately]

I wish I could just work 8 hours. My DM is coming tomorrow, so today I put in only 15 hours.............ackkkkkkkkkk.

I keep thinking that I'll get ahead here, get my own store like I am used to, and not have the same problems.

Alex did come up and see me tonight..........I just sat and held him for awhile. Felt good.

xoxoxo

I hope you're okay, if not - PM me anytime. xoxoxox

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Fuzzy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

My work is very unappreciated. The other day on a Sat. I fit a party of 25 people in - with only a 30 min. notice........they were thrilled with me, told my GM how awesome I am, etc.

Later, they gave me a tip (at least I could get some milk for home) and when I asked my GM, all he said was, "yea, I told them you work hard for me)........gee, thanks.

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Wendy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

It never pays off for me.........lol. I am not capable of only "doing the expectations" - it would drive me crazy.

It just seems like I am going around in circles, trying to get ahead but just missing it.

I told my GM today that if this guy gets promoted, I will be looking for a new job. I can't stand the two of them, and both got off the hook thus far - although the DM will be talking to the one sexist guy and I don't think it will be pleasant.

When I was holding Alex tonight up at work, it felt so good. Human contact with my flesh and blood was wonderful. I'm off Wed. & Thurs. and can spend some time with my son - esp. since they have Thurs. off - parent/teacher conferences.

The only thing that matters is Alex.

[LadyDragus]

My darling mary Alice I am so sorry, your life has hit this downward sprial..

you were doing so well with it all not just so long ago...

I still am here for you if you need me all you have to do is ask and you know it..
Pm if you need to k



<font color=green>
The Toa purs our everthing into life --
It is cornucopie that never runs dry.

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{Trish}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I've increased my new meds to 750mg. per day now. I've basically just had enough of everything for awhile and have crawled into my nice dark hole.

It is safe here and there is no light - I can blend in and no one pays any attention.

xoxoxox

[LadyDragus]

tis ok..

I can understand the hiding part..

I only have one question..

how often are you cutting????????

<font color=green>
The Toa pours our everthing into life --
It is cornucopie that never runs dry.

It is the deep source of everything--
it is nothing and yet in everything.

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Even if you're hiding and haven't joined in on my hug thread, I found you anyway!

Did you have your doctor's okay to increase your meds that much? Please be careful. I care about you.


<font color=orange>"Everyone has a need for significance; and if we can't make that possible, or even probable, in our society, then it will be obtained in destructive ways." -Rollo May</font color=orange>

[PlanningtoLive]

[PlanningtoLive]

Yes, Wendy, I am supposed to increase the dosage, with his approval. He started me out at 250mg.......1x, then one in the AM and another in the PM.........then we just started the 3x per day.

I care about you as well.........xoxoxxo

This is how I feel these days..........I wish I could:

[LadyDragus]

Me loves you no matter what and you know that my darling Mary Alice..



<font color=green>
The Toa pours our everthing into life --
It is cornucopie that never runs dry.

It is the deep source of everything--
it is nothing and yet in everything.