[wanting]

I was just wondering,i mean im not feeling suicidal right now,but one of my dark fantasies i have when i am out walkin to the shops and sutch is that i would die being robbed or perfoming an act of heroism rescuing someone only to be killed myself in the proccess,even when im not feeling particularly sad i have these thought all the time.Do they count as suicidal?

[behndblueyes]

I think that it hits that thin line in between. I dont think it quite means that you are suicidal because you dont wish to die and you dont want to act out on it. I think it is mostly that you are having suicidal thoughts. I am not sure though. It may be something you want to look further in to.

Take Care xx
Blue Eyes

[wanting]

My docor says its going to be six months at least before i can see a therapist and i dont want to say i need one right now because id have to commit myself and i really dont need that right now.so i am not sure where to turn.

[behndblueyes]

Are you in school or anything?? Therapist sometimes do take a really lon time but there should be a form or free counselling somewhre near you which you dont really have to worry about committing. Maybe you could look into that as an alternative until you get the actual appointment with the therapist?

x Blue Eyes

[wanting]

Thank you blue eyes youre really being kind to me replying so fast.I am 30yrs old but i am in college studying law (just started in september)so i will enqiure about some from there.Also my ex's sister whom i am very close too still,is a councellor but i am a little aprehensive about telling her ALL my problems although i did call her a few nights ago when i was feeling suicidal and she helped.

When I start to think about dying a lot, it is a sign that I'm heading into a depression & I should go see my meds provider & therapist. Maybe your ex's sister can give you some direction as to how to get into seeing a therapist (either the one you have or another one) sooner rather than later. Take care.--Suzy

[complic8d]

I think what that is called is being "passively sucidal", in that you don't want to take your own life, but you wish you would die somehow. For me, these thoughts definitely worsen as I sink into depression, and eventually end up being "actively suicidal" (with intent). If thoughts get worse or more frequent you may need to see someone sooner.
Good luck to you, and take care!

[Rhapsody]

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I was just wondering,i mean im not feeling suicidal right now,but one of my dark fantasies i have when i am out walkin to the shops and sutch is that i would die being robbed or perfoming an act of heroism rescuing someone only to be killed myself in the proccess,even when im not feeling particularly sad i have these thought all the time.Do they count as suicidal?

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I think what YOU are describing here is a typical response for many people who are suffering from within due to their past, combined with depression..... from my POV - I think that some of these thoughts will go away as YOU start to deal and heal from your inner wounds.... I know mine did.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[wanting]

Thanks again everybody,you are all a great source of help and inspiration to me.this site is the best and you people are all the best to i love you all.
i do have many issues that need sorting out i suppose when i was happy they could be hidden but ui always knew thaey were there

[heartspace]

wanting at least you know that there are issues to be sorted out. Sorry I can't give you any feedback re: your question as I honestly don't know the answer but wish you well on getting things sorted out.