[Jules148]

For over a year now, I have been trying to get a job in a certain industry. My youngest son moved with my x husband a year ago and I lost my child support. I have been trying to find a job that pays well enough to provide my kids and I with a home. I have left no stone unturned and have had no luck at all. I am living with my mother for the time being. I try to conceal my depression, but on occasion, it shows. My mother gets angry with me and proceeds to tell me all I do wrong. I know I am an adult and she is my mother and this is her house, but this is all becoming unbearable for me. This will be the 2nd Christmas in a row that I cannot buy anything for my kids. Almost every week, I am in contact with someone that encourages me that they will find me a job and it never happens. I am on a roller coaster and it is draining the life out of me. I have no one to turn to. All this talk of having faith, being patient...surely, God knows I am only human.

[Daeva]

It sounds like you're doing everything possible to do well by you and your kids, which in my book makes you a good Mom. And I'm sorry but your mom seems verbally abusive. My T once told me that sometimes what people say to me might be a reflection of what they're truly feeling about themselves. So perhaps your Mom is feeling that she can do no right, that she's responsible for your misfortune and don't know how to cope with that feeling. I may be wrong, but try to distance yourself from it. Some people don't understand how much depression hurts and effects us.

If you ever need to talk to me PM me I'll give you my Email and what not. You're not alone.

[winter4me]

Is there another industry you might use your skills in? I guess I am asking if you are putting all your eggs/plans/hopes into one basket. You are doing the best you can, maybe it is time to branch out the job search to other areas...Hang in there.