[lostfeeling25]

You're living a life you never wanted or planned? I've always felt like my life just happened, without any say from me. I never wanted to be who I am now, deal with the things I've gone through, be the person that I am. I've always been self conscious and insecure and never had the drive to change it or make it better. They always say you have the power to change it, but what if you completely lack motivation and courage to do so? I never wanted to be this depressed, jaded, pessimistic person. But I can't remember the last time I ever really believed in me or in anything. I just feel like it will always be this way. If I'm going to fail, why bother.

[waggiedog]

Hello there. Just wanna say that if it helps, I UNDERSTAND hunny, really I do. I send you big HUGS and a lot of LOVE. XXXXXXX

All the time.
I didn't ask to be here and be dealt such a ****** hand. I never asked for any of this. I have spent a great deal of time thinking about this very subject.
There are things I can change and there are many things I can't. I too feel very much like I'm always going to be like this and "giving up" crosses my mind way too often.
I often think why bother getting my hopes up why bother trying why bother doing. Your just going to **** it up anyway. :-/

Can unfortunately relate to just about everything you said.

Hang in there.
That's what I'm doing.



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[Idiot17]

Always did, always do feel that way. hang in there.

[Daeva]

Originally Posted by lostfeeling25

You're living a life you never wanted or planned? I've always felt like my life just happened, without any say from me. I never wanted to be who I am now, deal with the things I've gone through, be the person that I am. I've always been self conscious and insecure and never had the drive to change it or make it better. They always say you have the power to change it, but what if you completely lack motivation and courage to do so? I never wanted to be this depressed, jaded, pessimistic person. But I can't remember the last time I ever really believed in me or in anything. I just feel like it will always be this way. If I'm going to fail, why bother.

Yes I KNOW THAT FEELING. I always believed that our souls existed long before our body and we fall into a body, alot of times the wrong one, and thats how I feel. I never thought my life would be the one I had. I don't feel like me at all.

oh all the time.

i wanted none of this- when i was younger, i never thought i'd be so unlucky when it came to mental health

[lostfeeling25]

Thanks, everyone, for helping me realize I'm not alone in these feelings.

[retro_chic]

I feel the same. I don't even have a good reason as to why I'm like this. I guess I am just a piece of ****.

Sorry. I know this comment is of no help to you.

Originally Posted by lostfeeling25

You're living a life you never wanted .....

Only on the days that end in Y.

I am definitely living a life I don't want - - for the past 4 months since this severe depression started. You definitely are not alone!

[gayleggg]

You are not alone. Unfortunately, most of it is my own fault. I made some really bad decisions while manic and some equally bad ones while depressed. I could blame being bipolar but I knew what I was doing and knew I should have listened to my inner voice, but I didn't. It has led to a life I don't want.

[toscana]

Just yesterday on my way home I was thinking "why did I have to be born into this family?". For so many reasons I can relate to everything you said, just like everyone else has said.