[Melmo]

I have been off work since October 15th on stress leave due to depression and anxiety and since then, it seems like my depression has gotten worse. I am constantly tired and by the end of the day I am absolutely exhausted. I have always been a fairly light sleeper, and have never had a problem waking up when my daughter cries or gets up in the night. (shes 3) But last week we went to bed at the same time (we were cosleeping) and I passed out, but she didn't. She snuck out of the bedroom and went in the bathroom (next to my room) and started playing in the bathroom sink. My roommate caught her with soap and water all over the counter and floor. I only woke up when the roommate caught her, even though my door was open.
Then last night, I had her in her own room which is only down the hall from my room. I had my door open so I would hear her. This morning, my roommate told me she was up multiple times in the night playing with the cats and calling for me. I didnt hear a thing! This terrifies me because how the hell and I sleeping through this?! It scares me because what if she goes outside while I am sleeping, or gets into something dangerous?
I have a drs appt on Monday and Im gonna bring it up, but what should I do?

[Rohag]

??? - A motion-detector in your child's room that sets off an alarm by your bed?

[Sam2]

Depression alone can be so difficult. With a young child, it can seem like hell. Then you feel guilty because the child that should be the light of your life is just adding to your troubles.

You don't say if you have anyone else in your life, but since you have a roommate, I'm guessing that you are not married. I've experienced the kind of sleep you are talking about. I used to call it the sleep of the damned. You are so far down that nothing wakes you.

I don't know what your financial situation is or how close your family is to you, but consider either sending your daughter to a daycare center for a while each day or if you have parents close, have them take her for a while each day. The last thing you need is for something to happen to your daughter while you were asleep. You would probably never forgive yourself. There is nothing wrong with day care. Working parents do it all the time and they don't need to know why you are enrolling your daughter in it. I had to send my son to day care when he was two because I was in graduate school and my wife was at a job. He adjusted well and made friends. As I recall, it wasn't overwhelming price wise. God knows we didn't have any money.

Do what is safest for your daughter and give yourself a break. You didn't sign up for depression. No one would chose that for themselves. If you were physically ill, you would think nothing of asking for help. Mental health issues are no different. You shouldn't feel ashamed that you are having problems. You just need help at the moment.

Sam2

[Fuzzybear]

[Melmo]

Originally Posted by Sam2

Depression alone can be so difficult. With a young child, it can seem like hell. Then you feel guilty because the child that should be the light of your life is just adding to your troubles.

You don't say if you have anyone else in your life, but since you have a roommate, I'm guessing that you are not married. I've experienced the kind of sleep you are talking about. I used to call it the sleep of the damned. You are so far down that nothing wakes you.

I don't know what your financial situation is or how close your family is to you, but consider either sending your daughter to a daycare center for a while each day or if you have parents close, have them take her for a while each day. The last thing you need is for something to happen to your daughter while you were asleep. You would probably never forgive yourself. There is nothing wrong with day care. Working parents do it all the time and they don't need to know why you are enrolling your daughter in it. I had to send my son to day care when he was two because I was in graduate school and my wife was at a job. He adjusted well and made friends. As I recall, it wasn't overwhelming price wise. God knows we didn't have any money.

Do what is safest for your daughter and give yourself a break. You didn't sign up for depression. No one would chose that for themselves. If you were physically ill, you would think nothing of asking for help. Mental health issues are no different. You shouldn't feel ashamed that you are having problems. You just need help at the moment.

Sam2

I really really wish I could do that. My daughter loved her daycare and she made so many friends. I was put off work on stress leave and she hasn't been in daycare since Halloween. I was getting assistance through the govt to help pay for it because I'm a single mom and now that I'm not working I've got no income at all so there's no way I can afford child care, and my dad and my sister (only family members I trust) work. My dad does take her every Friday at supper time until Saturday night so I get a break.


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[Tapering]

Are you on sedating medications or alcohol that is causing this. I think it is a good idea to talk to your doc about.

[Melmo]

Originally Posted by Tapering

Are you on sedating medications or alcohol that is causing this. I think it is a good idea to talk to your doc about.

No alcohol in months, I started taking topiramate a month ago though, maybe that could be it?

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[Tapering]

Yes it is probably the topamax. I took that and people thought i was drunk. Contact your doctor and disguss this. As you know it is important.

[Melmo]

I have an appt Monday, I def will bring it up.

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[Tapering]

Good. Best wishes.

[Melmo]

I'm tired of being tired all the time, I'm gonna mention that I want to stop all my meds. They make me tired constantly, and who knows what else is just a side effect of them.

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Originally Posted by JustWantToBeNormal

I'm tired of being tired all the time, I'm gonna mention that I want to stop all my meds. They make me tired constantly, and who knows what else is just a side effect of them.

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I'm doing the same for the same reason! Sick of all the side effects, time to try without meds.

I keep having to tell myself not to shut out the idea completely and refuse meds forever...because if they do help, and going off them makes things even worse I need to be willing to admit I was wrong and I do need them.

That bit I'm struggling with though, I just don't want meds at all anymore.

I hope you can solve the sleep issue

[AngelP]

I don't know what it is I just feel like im not myself. I don't know who I am. I try to be myself but I don't know who it is. I wish I could just be my own person

[Melmo]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

I'm doing the same for the same reason! Sick of all the side effects, time to try without meds.

I keep having to tell myself not to shut out the idea completely and refuse meds forever...because if they do help, and going off them makes things even worse I need to be willing to admit I was wrong and I do need them.

That bit I'm struggling with though, I just don't want meds at all anymore.

I hope you can solve the sleep issue

That's how I feel too, I don't wanna be on meds anymore. I hope I can get off them and stay off.

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[Melmo]

Originally Posted by AngelP

I don't know what it is I just feel like im not myself. I don't know who I am. I try to be myself but I don't know who it is. I wish I could just be my own person

Hugs

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