[ThisWayOut]

I'm in a weird spot emotionally today. I'm not quite sure what to make of it. I'm restless and bored and a bit sad, but not quite sure why. I want to do things, but I don't. I want to talk to someone, but I don't. I'm not seeing my T again till Friday (all messed up because of the holiday and their accreditation review today). I could call her, but I'm not sure why I would. I don't really trust her lately, and I don't feel like I can ask for anything. I also have no idea what I would ask for. I just know that going a week and a half is difficult when I had been going twice a week recently. After my hospital stay, we dropped to once a week (which felt weird, but again, I don;t feel like I can ask for much anymore). I'm treading water waiting for the holidays to be over (both emotionally and in therapy).
I had been working on an art project for much of the week, and I think I finished it, but now I have nothing to do. I could start something else, but I don't really have any ideas or energy to follow through.
I don't know. I don't know what to do or not do. I hate this depression void.

[Sam2]

For some people, (it happened to me too), when you are starting to come out of depression, you feel stuck. You feel well enough to do some things, but not well enough to follow through on your plans. As a result, you wind up restless and bored. Its very confusing and I never had a therapist talk about it, but I can't believe it doesn't happen to others.

I do think that is one of the reasons that people wind up literally putting themselves back into depression. Although the depression was horrible and always eating at you, at least you knew what was going on. Since you don't have experience with the transition, it may feel unsafe and the thought of no longer being depressed is scarey.

Just a hunch.

Sam2

[Fuzzybear]

[ThisWayOut]

Originally Posted by Sam2

For some people, (it happened to me too), when you are starting to come out of depression, you feel stuck. You feel well enough to do some things, but not well enough to follow through on your plans. As a result, you wind up restless and bored. Its very confusing and I never had a therapist talk about it, but I can't believe it doesn't happen to others.

I do think that is one of the reasons that people wind up literally putting themselves back into depression. Although the depression was horrible and always eating at you, at least you knew what was going on. Since you don't have experience with the transition, it may feel unsafe and the thought of no longer being depressed is scarey.

Just a hunch.

Sam2

I think for me it hits both on the way into and out of major depression... I hate it.