it's really hard for me to be strong

for whatever reason i cannot make myself be tough. ive been exercising, eating healthily, and doing everything right for the past 4 months, have felt great, but i always end up coming back to feeling lonely and sad. its almost like the only thing thatll make me truly happy is being in a relationship, which i know is bad, but i just cannot get it out of my head, and i feel like im on the edge here.

i know this is hard to do but try to be patient, focus on yourself and find positive things that bring joy to your life. if you feel lonely and sad then reach out to your family and friends for support.

When i read what you wrote, it helped me reflect on my most important relationship...the one i am now building, no matter in or out of an intimate relationship, is the one I have with my own self...coming to grips with my fears, with my sadness even...with where they came from, and how I can learn from them...accepting nothing could have been any different... i am making little bits of progress...i hope you can identify some little progress in your relationship with your self, too...and not be too hard/tough on yourself...

it IS a struggle...i know...

i am so glad you shared, because it not only helped remind me of THE most important relationship, but helped me see how I have felt exactly the same way...and, when I feel that way, it is harder to remind myself of the true progress I have made in the most important relationship of all... with one"s own heart.