Why does it keep comoing back !!!!!

Once upon a time a little girl was born. WHY did it have to be me? I am depressed again and I'm taking my meds, a few weeks ago I actually felt good. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this. What has happened to me. I'm a mental case. I have absolutely no life at all. This is crazy and I can't take it anymore. HELP

(((((Krea))))) I'm sorry, PM me if you need anything.

I'm sorry you are so down! Please take care of yourself!! *hugs*

Their are so many of us out there that are depressed...most of my life I have been. Started at 12 and I'm 54 now. Some really do get out of it. I go to group for depression that helps and one thing that does help is just getting out side...I have a way with just wanting to hide inside most of the time. You may need your medication checked I'd tell your doctor how you feel, I've had to have mine changed. I wish you the best if you need to chat let me know. Take care, Verdi

Thank you for your concern. I just want to close my doors and blinds and stay in the house all day. Mine started at around 14 and I'm now 42. The last three years have been the worst. Like a roller coaster. My new med is Lexapro. I thought it was working after about 7 or 8 weeks, now it lilke I'm gong backwards. I just don't know. <font color="#008800"> </font> Katie

I know how you feel -don't feel much better myself. I have decided to stop my meds. probably a stupid decision, but I am not seeing enough of a difference, and I don't want to mess up my brain... I actually felt worse on lexapro and switched to effexor xr - only slightly better...
good luck!

Hi Krea,
Boy, I have felt the way you do so many times in my life. I have dealt with depression as long as I can remember and also grew up with both Mother and Father depressed. So, whether it's hereditary or learned or both, I am still fighting it at 52 today. I have taken many different anti-depressants but the last one he put me on has helped me more than any of the others. I take prozac and wellbutrin and although, I go through cycles, it seems better now than before.
It sounds like you need a change in your meds to me.
When you said, "once upon a time a little girl was born, why did it have to be me", it triggered a time in my life that I had buried and hadn't thought about in a long time.
I had a sister that died before I was born and when I was eighteen, my father once told me that he had one little girl that died but wished it had been me.
Don't feel bad, that's not why I told you this. I just want you to know that I know how you feel. Try and get some help before you dig yourself in so deep that it's really hard to come back. I have gone into those episodes and all I do is stay in the house with the blinds closed and talk to know one. I don't want to see you suffer this way. Please, find someone you can talk to about your feelings. It does help.
If there is anything I can do to help you, let me know. I care.

Linda

(((((((( krea )))))))

Krea-
have they checked your thyroid recently.....I found out that was part of my problem. I too take lexapro, and i think it goes in shifts of working, because sometimes it works great, and other times I feel like it doesn't do a thing.
If you want to you can always pm me. I check the site generally once a day if not more.

(((Krea)))

Hope life turns arround
-DAR

Thanks for everyone's concern. I'm got an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow. I will have my thyroids checked though. I agree lexapro works sometimes and other times it doesn't.

Hope things get better. When I took Lexapro, I always felt better when I had another med to boost it up. Risperdal worked great for that for me, but I know many who hate it. Plus my depression was bipolar so it helped with the other stuff too. Maybe you need a boost - a nice little drug cocktail. Cocktails always make you feel better - with a little umbrella and hunk of fruit...Good luck

I hope things start to lighten up for you!!!!!!