[Gwenvar]

So I write because whenever I start something new, that I like, I can do it for a while, but then next time I just can't do it. Whenever I want to do something I like (art for e.g.), there's fear and anxiety, and I just can't. So all the things left, are necessities, addictive behaviors, and things I use to escape (for e.g. taking a walk outside in the smoke-filled air).

I feel like my brain is totally working against myself. I was going to post details, but as soon as I began writing I forgot everything .

[Sam2]

Does this sound familiar? You start a project or new job etc. and begin by going all out. Then after a while, it peeters out and you quit?

There are things I won't start because I don't feel I can do them. Instead of trying and failing, I don't even start. After a while, your world gets smaller and smaller until , as you say, there are only the necessities left. Some people forge ahead and look at failures as learning experiences. It doesn't stop them from trying again. For others, the risk is too great.

The sad thing is, most of the things that are not started for fear of failure would actually work out. Lack of self esteem and self confidence stops some of us, and the more we do it, the stronger the behavior becomes.

Try picking something small that no one else knows about. If it doesn't work or you don't finish it, no one will know but you. That takes some of the pressure off.

sam2

[Altered Moment]

Story of my life. Even when I am feeling at my best I start projects and am all motivated for awhile then lose interest and don't finish it. Then some other interest will capture my attention and the same thing happens. when I am depressed i have no interest in even starting anything. It becomes even less than the bare necessities.

What are the addictive behaviours?