[changelingfiend]

I feel like the source of my deppression is that I'm bored with life. Since I was young I've read books, fiction, unfortunately I think that it was my love of books that led to my depression. When I read I feel like I'm on an adventure, but when I stop I'm instantly in a world of hate.
I watch TV,I see the news. Manhattan, that batman movie shooting. I grew up in Detroit everyday people were dying, so to look at the world in books and see the difference.
Because of those books I constantly find myself sitting up at night starting at the wall. I feel like I'm waiting for something but when it never comes that's when I get my worst.
I even tried to take my own life because of it, given it was a poor attempt but I still tried to carry out the act.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Changelingfiend.

Originally Posted by changelingfiend

When I read I feel like I'm on an adventure, but when I stop I'm instantly in a world of hate.

Is the hate only in events beyond your home, or does the hate brush up against you? (Feel free to ignore my questions. No need to share beyond your comfort.)

Have you sought treatment or tried certain types of self-help for depression?

Sorry you feel so bad. Have you got any hobbies? Any interests? Life doesnt need to be boring, it can be really fun if you fill it with activity and good people. Sometimes its as simple as making small changes to help depression.