[Whoaminoone]

Well, never heard back from that job interview 2 weeks ago. I'd say at this point it's evident I didn't get the job. The thought that I'll be 'lucky' to be hired for even a minimum wage job when I have a college degree is incredibly frustrating and upsetting.
My out of control children are another source of frustration. I may as well be pissing into tornado winds trying to get them to listen to a single word I say or to not destroy everything they touch. I know a huge part of this is their dad. He travels quite a bit for work and isn't with them on a regular basis, therefore, when he is home, they get away with absolute murder. He contradicts every 'rule' I make and try to enforce. Example: I set a bedtime of 8:30 on week nights & 9:00 on weekends...but when their dad is home, he allows them to stay up as long as they want- regardless of whether it's a school night or whatever. I'm always the "bad guy". Worse still is he constantly belittles and contradicts my rules IN FRONT OF THE KIDS. They have no respect for me whatsoever...and I don't feel like they ever will.
I don't feel like my meds are really helping anymore. I've pretty much given up any hope of ever feeling happy. It seems I'm destined to a meaningless life of misery.

[gayleggg]

You are fighting a pretty big battle with the kids. My husband did that with his kids when they came for weekends and then one moved in at 16 and my life was never the same again. We'er still married but I don't know why. We don't really have a life together anymore and that was many years ago.

I'm sorry the job market is as bad as it is. You shouldn't have to work for minimum wage, but life doesn't go by rules. It is sad. I wish you luck.

[ayana95]

I'm sorry you didnt get the job. Taking care of young kids is stressful. I grew up with a single mom and I had a lot of respect. I'm also a single parent. Your husband maybe trying to make up for lost time with the kids by over compensating. Children sometimes need rules and structure. I know it frustrated when one parent doesn't back up the other.
I'm sorry your meds arent helping. I lose hope sometimes too. Its hard to get motivated to do the simplest things.

[gma45]

Your husband sounds like a real jerk. So sorry he is not helping you with the kids. Kids will use a situation like that which is not good! I hope you can find another job, just keep trying. Maybe you can get some different meds too! I know life sucks sometimes but it will get better. I am sending hugs your way!