[ready2makenice]

Lately everyone in my life has cut me off. All my family and close friends have abandoned me. I feel so alone and unlovable.

I've been crying myself to sleep and sleeping a lot more. I feel like even my own T has left me and hates me.

Everyone seems angry and annoyed. I just want to stay in my little hole. I don't feel like I deserve to be happy anymore,I am so numb

It hurts so much and then not at all

Hello ready2makenice: I'm sorry you feel so alone & unlovable. I peeked at your homepage & you seem to have quite a few friends here on PC. You know, you do deserve to be happy. You don't have to do anything to deserve it. But happiness comes from within, not from the outside. So it doesn't matter if everyone seems angry & annoyed. Maybe they are. Or maybe this is just your perspective, which is being distorted by your sadness. But either way, true happiness will come from within; not from these other people. Of course, I realize this is easy to say; & I fail at finding happiness within as often as I succeed. So I guess I'm a good one to talk (LOL!) But although I frequently fail at finding happiness within as well... I do know that this is where it comes from & it's the only place worth searching for it.

[marie4u]

sadness and happiness comes with our own choices....i believe that...the thing is u have to think positively every time..

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by ready2makenice

Lately everyone in my life has cut me off.

In the short run, this is extremely painful. In the long run, it may lay the foundation for much better things.

Wishing you strength for the present.

[Fuzzybear]

[ready2makenice]

Originally Posted by marie4u

sadness and happiness comes with our own choices....i believe that...the thing is u have to think positively every time..

When you're clinically depressed it doesn't come as easy as writing those words. So I'm going to have to disagree with you there.

Thank you everyone,feeling a little hopeless and numb but.....things happen I suppose.