lost

hello everyone. so my title is lost because thats exactly what i am... LOST. im more depressed than ever. i was living with this guy in chicago for 2 years now and he always tells me to leave when he gets mad at me. i know im not perfect but i am trying to get help. i was seeing a counselor and physcitrist and taking meds for bipolar. the reason i didnt have my meds for 2 weeks is because he was taking them so i was depressed and edgy. he knew i would b like that if i didnt have my meds but he wanted to take them to help him stop smoking weed. anyway long story short he made me leave and got me a bus ticked to my family in mississippi. im so much more depressed than before. yesterday was the first day i took my meds. i hate it here. my home is not here. its there. he says he'll bring me back there in a month and a half when i get better. how am i gonna get better with meds alone. i need my dr to talk to but shes in chicago and ive been in miss since yesterday i was sapposed to see my dr today but im not there. im so frigging depressed. i want to go home

I'm sorry you're lost, hopefully soon you'll be found.

Sorry to hear!!

Let your family love on you while you are there. There is no harm in starting therapy while you are there until you figure out what you want, and let your emotions settle down. Maybe its just me, but it does not sound like he really loves you. He took your meds for him. He took them when you needed them, and he sent you away. Plan to do some healing while you are there.