[Webgoji]

It seems like I keep running into the same solutions over and over for getting out of this depression:

1. Leave behind all my relationships and start life completely over. Wash, rinse repeat until I find a place I can be content.
2. Sedate myself to the point where I can't feel or think anymore.
3. Live at the Good Shepard Behavioral Health Center.

This can't be it though. There's gotta be something so I can live a "normal" life and be happy with the family and friends I have.

[Rohag]

#2 I don't like because it would affect your writing. Is there a level of sedation you can tolerate and still write?

#3 May not be feasible (I don't know).

#1... Would letting go of one or more relationships (commitments, involvements) save for you the rest?



Here's hoping you can effectively gather and sift ideas...

[Fuzzybear]

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Originally Posted by Webgoji

It seems like I keep running into the same solutions over and over for getting out of this depression:

1. Leave behind all my relationships and start life completely over. Wash, rinse repeat until I find a place I can be content.
2. Sedate myself to the point where I can't feel or think anymore.
3. Live at the Good Shepard Behavioral Health Center.

This can't be it though. There's gotta be something so I can live a "normal" life and be happy with the family and friends I have.

Hello Webgoji: I don't know any of the details of your situation. So I can't really suggest much. But my sense of your post is that, as you look around at your situation, you only see bad options. This is my situation. Are there changes I could make in my life? Sure if I don't mind destroying what remains of my wife's life. In that case, there's lots of options. But beyond that well I could try to get myself medicated up the point where I don't really care about anything... or I can just keep doing what I've always done... just suck it up & keep on keepin' on & hope that I pass away of natural causes before my sucking ability runs out for good! Like I said to one therapist I talked to: I know what my options are... I just don't like any of them. I hate to say so, but I think sometimes life just leaves us in a place such as this where there just aren't any good options. But then, perhaps there's another option out there you haven't considered yet. I do hope so.

[Webgoji]

Originally Posted by Rohag

#2 I don't like because it would affect your writing. Is there a level of sedation you can tolerate and still write?

#3 May not be feasible (I don't know).

#1... Would letting go of one or more relationships (commitments, involvements) save for you the rest?



Here's hoping you can effectively gather and sift ideas...

Actually, if I didn't have a story I wanted to tell it would pull a stressor out of my life. To be perfectly honest, taking away my interest and desire in writing would take away the situation for me to feel more alone. I write because I want to be heard, that's what makes it so hard when people aren't interested.

#3 almost happened for at least an overnight crisis intervention. I was literally one misstep from being taken to Good Shepard and put on suicide watch (such as being alone too long, being in the bathroom near razor blades too long or not making sure people monitored my medication intake).

As far as letting go of a relationship or two, I wonder myself. My life revolves around being there for others, but I'm collapsing under the weight and can't hold them or myself up any longer. I'm just not sure about this one.

[Webgoji]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Hello Webgoji: I don't know any of the details of your situation. So I can't really suggest much. But my sense of your post is that, as you look around at your situation, you only see bad options. This is my situation. Are there changes I could make in my life? Sure if I don't mind destroying what remains of my wife's life. In that case, there's lots of options. But beyond that well I could try to get myself medicated up the point where I don't really care about anything... or I can just keep doing what I've always done... just suck it up & keep on keepin' on & hope that I pass away of natural causes before my sucking ability runs out for good! Like I said to one therapist I talked to: I know what my options are... I just don't like any of them. I hate to say so, but I think sometimes life just leaves us in a place such as this where there just aren't any good options. But then, perhaps there's another option out there you haven't considered yet. I do hope so.

I agree completely.