[izzyfg2000]

I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm just waiting each day for the next to begin. Not out of excitement, but because im praying there will somehow be a change. When I realize that a sudden change will never happen, I think that death is my only option. Not because of that fact that I think the world is better off without me, but because it just hurts so much. I just want to scream and cry all the time. When I wake up every morning I think about when I'll have a wave of depression or anxiety again. i look at myself wholly, and see a good person, but I pick out all my flaws one by one until all I am is a hollow excuse of a human. I always look for help, but I know that it is just an excuse to feel better, until I feel horrible again. It is always. Going. To. Be. Useless.

Oh izzy xxx ur not worthless and u have my support here if u need to chat many hugs sweetie xxx hope you feel better soon

[Fuzzybear]

[depressedalaskan]

Hi izzyfg2000, I understand how you feel. Just wish I had an answer for you.

[likewater]

((((izzyfg2000)))) thanks for posting. I'm so sorry to hear you are in so much pain. There are ways to get the pain / anxiety better without ending your life. Please call a crisis line, a therapist, 911 or go to the ER. What you are feeling IS that serious and you need help now. You are that important. You are not a combination of your flaws. You are a beautiful, wonderful being put here to complete the universe. If you end your life, there will be a hole in the universe, a piece of the puzzle missing.now go get some help and may angels surround you.