[ryaan21]

I have been battling depression and anxiety for years. I am a single male, 37 years old, no children. I am having a hard time finding mental health help in my area. No one will see me unless I am sui/homo cidal OR if I have insurance or medical coverage of some sort through the government.

I do have access to a tribal clinic but all they are really able to do is prescribe medication.

I have been on a ton of different medications and eventually found a combination that worked for a while.

I recently was fired from my job, and it is like something inside me broke. I cannot hardly function anymore, my apartment is a shambles, I just don't care. I am still sound enough in my mind to ask for help and have contacted various agencies but what I need is to be checked into a facility. I have so much depression and anxiety that it is starting to turn into rage.

The only medication I have left that is working is Seroquel and I only take that because if I dont I will be awake for days and end up in the local ER talking to a mental health agent.

I have a well established record there for my mental issues but I feel like I am slipping down a steep slope.

I am probably going to be homeless as my rent is due on the 5th and I have no way to pay it. I feel like a huge weight is on me and I am going to pop.

When I was seeing the regular doctor at the tribal clinic they thought I was bipolar, depressed, anxiety disorder and psychosis. I got on meds, actually held a job down for 3 years before I got fired. Now I dont know what to do.

They only "thought" those things because no one there was qualified to make a diagnosis.

I dont want to get on more meds, but I know I might have to, but I cannot see a real head doctor because I am unable to pay.

Sorry for the long post. I had to get my thoughts down in print before I went nuts. Thank you for your time.

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I feel ya. I was fired from my job a year and a couple of months ago. I went into a very deep depression that lasted a long time. I have also been fighting this thing my whole life. I was able to work all that time in California and had insurance but the depression has gotten so much worse with anxiety now that i never used to have there was no way I could go back to work. I had to reach out to family for help and move back to Michigan. I was able to collect unemployment for a year from CA but that ran out. I am very lucky to have the support of my family or I would be homeless.

Can you apply for unemployment. You should apply for medicaid food stamps and cash assistance from the state. What county are you in. Where I am at county mental health is seeing me for free. That is about to end because all the laws are changing. I think I will qualify for medicaid though. Michigan is expanding medicaid. the problem is it doesn't go into effect until april 1st. also they are making big cuts to county mental health budgets. There is a bill that is about to change that though and they are going to get more money for the transition period. Your county should have something set up. and it seems like you should qualify for unemployment.

Hi...
In my opinion, getting fired is one of the worst things that can happen to you....It's crushing.
Is there any support groups in your area for unemployed?

Please check out the resources on this forum and this is the link for the Michigan Department of Community Health. Call or email everyone...

https://www.michigan.gov/mdch/0,4612...899---,00.html

And keep posting....there are many here who can relate and it's so good to get out your thoughts.

[ryaan21]

Hey guys. thanks for the responses.

I am in the process of getting unemployment. But with the difficulties I have been having with that I did some research and according to a lot of people posting online the system is basically crippled. Phone system not working or cutting off calls.

Online job search submission is broken. I have done the required work for 2 checks and cannot even get a hold of anyone on the phone. I get put on hold for 1+ hours or I get a message saying they are so busy that I need to call back later and then it hangs up. I am trying not to get upset.

I live in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan in Gladstone.

My family is helping me as much as they can, I HATE asking for help. I would rather be homeless and I think that is what is going to happen. The thought of needing to move in with a relative at this point in my life is almost to much to think about.

Our mental health service here is very very poor. I have no vehicle. I have about $35 to my name.

I need to be seen by a psychiatrist, have needed it for years but I cannot find one who will help someone without money or insurance.

I can now see why people give up and do horrible things. Every avenue for help requires money and a lot of people dont have money.

I would not ask for a handout, just help to get my mind right. I am falling into a pit I am scared I may not be able to climb out of.

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http://www.pathwaysup.org/

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Can you call pathways?

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[ryaan21]

I appreciate the link but they are pretty much useless. They know I have issues because they have been called to do evals on me many times. I dont have insurance or medicaid so I am SOL with them.

I do appreciate the help though. Thank you.

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They should have a general budget for patients with no income. They do where in the county where I am. Although there budget for it is getting cut April first. There is supposed to be a bill about to pass to restore that money however. I was told after april first I can't see my pdoc anymore unless this new bill passes. It is worth a call to see if they can take you for free.
Are you taking any meds now?
Can you go to the tribe and get some prescribed?
You can't go homeless dude it is 0 degrees out there in the middle of a UP winter.
Hopefully your unemployment comes through. I know what it is like trying to deal with them. CA system was broken too. Impossible to get through on the phone. Their online email system worked better, it would at least tell you the status of your check.

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DHS office in Escanaba. I am kind of a Upper as my parents both grew up in the Soo. I grew up in Alpena.

305 Ludington Street
Escanaba, MI 49829

[ryaan21]

Yeah I am trying the online thing as well.

I take Seroquel since all the others have stopped working. I suffer from extreme anxiety. All the other things that are wrong with me are just the guesses of a medical doctor.

I was taking lithium, tegretol, and a ton of other medications. The latest ones I was taking were Buspar, celexa, and valium.

My family is from the Soo. I spent the first part of my life there.