my story

The reason for my depression seems so trivial when I write it out - relationship over. To make a long story short: met a man a year ago, fell in love with him, he pushed me away and ended things due to horrible issues from his childhood. He couldn't handle a romantic relationship. We've remained friends but my self-worth was totally destroyed in the process. I feel absolutely worthless, useless, stupid for trusting him, I have no hope for the future. What hurts the most is the way he now treats me. If he could just be my friend that would be okay, I'd get used to that, but he treats everyone better than me. He treats platonic friends, business associates, even strangers better than me. Even though he says he's glad I'm his friend, that no one has ever been as good to him as I have been. I've done a lot of research on childhood sexual abuse and everything he does, the way he's acting and treating me is exactly how I've read that a survivor acts. But I can't help taking it personally. I don't know why I can't move beyond feeling as bad as I do. He ended things in August and I can't get past it.

Hi,
I am sorry to hear that you are sad and hurting so much. I do not believe your problem is trivial at all. If you still love him, only cant change the situation, it sounds like you are still grieving. I think everyone is different when it comes to the end of a relationship. Some people recover quickly, and others, myself included, have a very difficult time "moving on" with our lives. I agree with ozzie, that perhaps a therapist would be good for you, just to have someone to talk to and to help you cope with your loss.

Peace~ CHRIS

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