[ks33182]

I'm having a bad day, well really a stretch of bad, lonely days...yesterday (saturday) I asked my T if she had any openings on Monday, but she said she was booked but was doing paper work Sunday evening (tonight) and that I could see her if I wanted to come in...she just took a vacation so I didn't see her at my regular time last week.
I'm dealing with many things right now and something triggered me this afternoon into a crying fit...I stop here and there, but then go back to it. And maybe it's weird, but I feel bad seeing my T since I am a wreck right now, she's just ending her vacation and I feel like a burden coming in on her "day off" and being the way I am right now...
I guess I'm just venting right now, but I want to stop feeling sad and I want to go back to work tomorrow in a content state (some of my "issues" deal with work), I have stopped since writing this post, so that's a good start I suppose...but I hate feeling guilty about seeing her today. Ugh.

Thanks for reading.

[NWgirl2013]

Don't feel guilty. Your T offered.
Now you need to pull yourself together, make a few notes about the upcoming session, what you want to highlight so you stay focused to get that calm you seek. Then get showered and put on something that cheers you up and go. It sounds like you have a really great rapport with your T.
Best to you ~

[ks33182]

Thanks, I am starting to calm down, almost cried again, but hopefully T can help...yes we do have a good relationship I think, I've been seeing her for almost a year now.

[ks33182]

So I just got back from my session and of course things were fine, I can get freaked out about things sometimes...I did bring up to her that I was feeling bad about it and she said it was no problem at all...