[MrBadAtThis]

So as far as a diagnosis goes, I have Bipolar 2 disorder and major depressive disorder

Now I have several problems that need addressing, the first being I am unable to let things go that should have been let go a long time ago. Whenever some one/thing does me wrong I dwell on it for sometimes WEEKS... YEARS EVEN. I can not distract myself with other thoughts, nor can I simply forgive or forget what has happened. I would love to simply forget about those wrongdoings because they lead to frustration.

Now when I get frustrated with something it feels like there is a cymbal monkey pounding away in my head causing the frustration to grow. It just bothers me more and more until I'm ready to snap.

Another thing that is bothering me is my lack of motivation. I try and pep talk myself everyday that I will finish my college homework or go to class even. I try just doing it.. but there is an invisible mental wall that prevents me from following through. and that leads to more frustration.

I am unsure how all of these things are tied together. But I am in desperate need for advice and a cure, I'm tired of being lazy and upset all day every day I want it to stop

[pegasus]

Hello MrBadAtThis, nice to meet you. I think you need to try being more compassionate towards yourself. Would you be quite so hard on anyone else as you are with yourself? That would hopefully help the frustration part and then you would find more motivation to do what you need to do. Welcome to Psych Central!

[regretful]

Welcome to PC...I'm hopeful that you find help here...

[LaborIntensive]

Originally Posted by MrBadAtThis

So as far as a diagnosis goes, I have Bipolar 2 disorder and major depressive disorder

Now I have several problems that need addressing, the first being I am unable to let things go that should have been let go a long time ago. Whenever some one/thing does me wrong I dwell on it for sometimes WEEKS... YEARS EVEN. I can not distract myself with other thoughts, nor can I simply forgive or forget what has happened. I would love to simply forget about those wrongdoings because they lead to frustration.

Now when I get frustrated with something it feels like there is a cymbal monkey pounding away in my head causing the frustration to grow. It just bothers me more and more until I'm ready to snap.

Another thing that is bothering me is my lack of motivation. I try and pep talk myself everyday that I will finish my college homework or go to class even. I try just doing it.. but there is an invisible mental wall that prevents me from following through. and that leads to more frustration.

I am unsure how all of these things are tied together. But I am in desperate need for advice and a cure, I'm tired of being lazy and upset all day every day I want it to stop

This is verbatim what I am going through myself. What therapy have you had so far?

[littlemiss44]

Dbt therapy could help you alot. It stand for dialectical behavior therapy. It helps change how our brains see the world. You learn to live in wise mind and not only in emotional mind. It was very helpful to me. Check it out on line. Good luck to you.

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