Low low low low....

I feel so bad trying to make myself stay in bed so I don't hurt myself but I'm getting restless and need to. I'm losing hope. I want this all to end. I don't know how to keep going. I don't think I want to. I am slowly but surely giving up yet again. I can't keep on doing this. It's too much.

I wish I had so much encouragement to give but I know it's not enough. I'm sending prayers and thoughts your way.

I was in the same spot in late December - concerned family took me to the hospital. I'm glad they did. It's still a struggle, and it is exhausting, but please keep holding on. As atomicc wrote, I too send thoughts and prayers your way.

Please hold on secretwhisper. You're not alone in your feelings. Please keep posting. We're here for you. Do you have a therapist and/or pdoc?

Hang in there. ((((((((secretwhisper)))))))))

I feel ya. I stayed in bed for 26 hours straight I didn't want to move or even bare to get up and start my day. All I can give are all I can say is don't give up, keep pushing and it will get better.

I feel ya Secretwhisper,

I just spent the whole weekend crying on and off. I think I'm done now (I hope). Hang in there and keep visiting us. You can get through this.

Thanks for the hugs and kind words. I finally see my T on Wednesday...it's been four weeks. I'm struggling through but I can make it there I think. After that I'm not sure...we'll see.

I'm glad that you feel you can hang in there till seeing the therapist. Be sure that you express how bad you've been feeling when you talk to your T. Keep in touch with us here. Feeling absolutely awful doesn't usually last forever, though it can feel like forever. Life seems designed to test us, and that can get real old. You've made it through hard times before, I'll bet. Try to eat something. Try to talk to anyone you know who you trust. I hope this eases for you soon.

Why do I keep trying? I'm just so done. I wish I could give up. Why can't I just give up?

I finally saw my T this morning. I think he was a bit alarmed how bad things had suddenly become again when it was going well and I was stable for nearly two months. It was good to actually tell someone IRL the extent of what's going on in my head...as much as I'm able to anyway. And if I need it, he said he can probably squeeze me in next week too rather than waiting three weeks.

You are strong, Secretwhisper. You have the ability to push through. With the help of your T, you can regain the stability you had for those 2 months. We all believe in you...

You do sound better. Hang in there. You'll know good days again.