[HahaYourDead]

Im 16. I've been diagnosed with major depression and social phobia. I feel scared of myself. Like there is a secret about me that i dont know and that others might know and they will never tell me. I switch between 2 obsessions often. I have obsession with science. (physics and stuff like that) because i wanna be super smart, and then i have a dark obsession. I get obsessed with dark thoughts. Like where im stuck in an old asylum, locked up in a dark room forever and i go crazy. Its like a fantasy i think about obsessively. I feel crazy at times and it causes a bunch of stress. My therapist said i could possibly be on a break of psychosis, but that was months ago and i havent seen her since. She strongly recommended me going to a mental health place but i moved a week later across the country. I just wanna hear what someone thinks or if someone can relate somehow.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, HahaYourDead.

Yes, I'm also afraid of myself, most specifically of what I might do during those times when I am overwhelmed or become irrational.

It's too bad you didn't have more time with that therapist; you might have learned more of her concerns for you. Have you seen anyone else since moving?

[HahaYourDead]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello & Welcome, HahaYourDead.

Yes, I'm also afraid of myself, most specifically of what I might do during those times when I am overwhelmed or become irrational.

It's too bad you didn't have more time with that therapist; you might have learned more of her concerns for you. Have you seen anyone else since moving?

I was supposed to see a psychiatrist but we just blew it off. I was supposed to be on antidepressants. But we just never went once we moved.