It was a pretty rough weekend (between my ears).

I started off okay, but I just kept sloping down. On Saturday my wife and I went out for dinner and was doing okay. We decided to stop by the grocery store on the way home.... before we were done shopping I literally felt like I was going to fall on the floor of the store and go into a fetal position.

I feel like my mind is caving in on itself. I am crumbling. And I am getting very, very tired of this fight. I am not sure how much energy I have left.

[Fuzzybear]

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[gayleggg]

You need to learn what your limits. I can't go out to eat then do other shopping. It's just too tough. I make two separate trips if I have to to conserve energy. I usually only go to the store early in the morning before the crowd gets there. I can't deal with the store and crowds, too.

We can only do what we are able to do, no reason to feel ashamed about that, anymore than you would if you had heart trouble and had to slow down. Keep your head up and be proud you can at least go out to eat, some are scared to do that.

As always - Thanks gay (and others) for your input.

[Frankbtl]

Hi UM, I've seriously got to admire your courage or resilience (either!!) in stretching out the day!!
But give yourself a break, you started of OK, you went for dinner with your wife those things in themselves are brilliant!!!!
The rest, well would you really, really be too disappointed if you didn't go shopping as well the next time around??
Give yourself some real credit for what you managed before the shopping, and it must have really meant something to your wife too!!.
And hey, lesson learnt maybe?? Can't be superman all the time !! In fact superman would probably have fallen apart too at that point if he'd been going through the same feelings as you!!
And go easy on yourself, right??!! One step at a time. What would be weird about that day would be if you had an allergic reaction to the store but you didn't much more like overload and that you can come back from/that you will come back from if you maybe just try pacing yourself and not too much at once.
Hang on in there, you've already shown yourself what you're capable of (in a good way- with the OK start and meal out), that's still there, don't forget it!!
Alison

And P.S. no "beating yourself up"/feeling worse because you can't do x,y or z right now (I know you probably are!! ) doesn't matter. There's a lot you are doing which you probably aren't giving yourself credit for!! Including helping so many people on here!!!!

[waggiedog]

Oh yes, I have to totally agree with what someone said. If I'm to go out to eat, which I hate doing as I have an eating disorder, then there's NO WAY I can do anything else. Neither on the way out or on the way back, it has to be one thing and one thing alone. Shops makes me panic anyways, so noisy and big. Try to only do ONE outing and split other things up. HUGS. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[SeekerOfLife]

Hi UM. I think Alison had a good point about pacing yourself. Hey, I think I would have been on overload. I dont enjoy eating out. I feel like everyone is watching me. And then to end the evening with another chore.....too much activity back to back is overwhelming! It often takes the perspective of someone else to see what we miss. I think that is part of why we go to therapy.

[Idiot17]

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