[SeekerOfLife]

My depression feels like a large heavy wet coat dragging me down.

My depression feels like a rock in my heart.

My depression feels like a never ending sadness.

My depression feels like a burden I cannot carry much longer.

My depression feels like it will be like this the rest of my life.

[gayleggg]

My depression feels like I'm dead inside.

My depression feels like it will never lift.

My depression feels like I'm just waiting on death.

My depression feels like like being empty.

My depression feels like something very heavy weighing my body down, suffocating me. It is a huge void, an emptiness. It is neverending fear of what's to come.

[Frankbtl]

Hi seekersinking, sometimes it can be so hard to see much of anything past depression, it can feel so hard to get through a moment, an hour, a day with it sometimes. And it can effect so many parts of your life, but you are stronger than it is.
You have fought it and showed it just what you're really made of. You do have it in you!! And bit by bit you're letting it know that it isn't winning. It may not feel like that all the time, but you really are.
Don't let it take away from the moments/the times (however many, however few!!) that you have actually smiled, you have felt hope, you have felt some warmth, a little light has crept through those cracks. They are your moments, they are you, you are still there regardless whatever the depression may think. And there's going to be no beating you, nothing can ever replace what's actually inside you.
But when it's hard you know that we're going to be here for you, you're not on your own. It's got one h**l of a challenge on it's hands!!
Remember you are special whatever!!
Alison

[littlemiss44]

My depression feels like an endless black hole.
It feels like there is only darkness
My depression feels like a weight is holding me down.
It feels like I'm drowning.
It seems that I'm just surviving and not living.
I know there are positive things but I can't see then right now.

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[SeekerOfLife]

Alison, thank you for the pep talk. It is very encouraging.

To everyone else: time for a group hug.

[Jeffrey66]

My depression makes existence feel meaningless

My depression feels like a weight on my head

My depression makes me feel a million miles away

My depression makes me not care

My depression make me not sleep well.

That feels relieving to let that out.



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[Nammu]

Under the heavy force field of depression my molecules separate until I am only an insubstantial hologram of what I once was. Those around me think I am still me but they only see the projection of the false me. The real self has been caught up by a black hole pulling me into an ever increasing gravity well that shall never release me.

[Altered Moment]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

Under the heavy force field of depression my molecules separate until I am only an insubstantial hologram of what I once was. Those around me think I am still me but they only see the projection of the false me. The real self has been caught up by a black hole pulling me into an ever increasing gravity well that shall never release me.

Well if reality you are hologram on the edge of the universe then you still exist. Maybe that self doesn't have depression.

[PoorPrincess]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

Under the heavy force field of depression my molecules separate until I am only an insubstantial hologram of what I once was. Those around me think I am still me but they only see the projection of the false me. The real self has been caught up by a black hole pulling me into an ever increasing gravity well that shall never release me.

sidestepper, thank you for articulating so perfectly the unutterable,
the real truth of 'how it is'.

I have friends whom I have known 30-40 years.
I still cannot get them to understand that there are years when
'I'm not really here nowadays. I am totally eclipsed.'

Thanks again. Beautifully crafted.

[Fuzzybear]