[nak0604]

Not many people know my background and whats happened to me but im going to need some encouraging posts and people who i can talk to. Back in my high school days i didnt have anyone to talk to, ive never really had any friends. My life was very difficult, until i met this girl (who now is the closest and the best person i know) who really helped me turn my life around and really made me happy. We hang out a lot these days since we go to college close to each other and she got this internship. So this summer she will be 7-8 hours away, further then weve ever been apart. I usually count on getting hugs and talking face to face but i dont know how im going to manage over the summer.

Any words of encouragement?

P.S. Happy Easter everyone

[Paige74]

It's so hard when you feel like there's no one you will be able to go to, share things with, etc. I'm sorry you're in that position for the summer.
Maybe it would help to understand there are so many other people like you (and me) who feel they don't have someone & feel alone. Maybe you could do a volunteer activity each week where you would meet some people. And then just naturally develop some friendships.

[littlemiss44]

Oh that's going to be hard. My best friend lives kinda close to me but we usually just talk on the phone daily and that's all we need. I mean it's nice that I can see her anytime but I don't cause I tend to isolate from others. I know it will be a difficult transition for you...very hard to see yr best friend move away. Do you guys talk on the phone alot? Im worried it's going to make you more depressed. How are you feeling these days? Are you pretty stable right now? I don't really know if I've helped but I do care. One time my bf who is also bp had a bad episode where she didn't want to talk for a while. It devastated me. I was lost without her. She eventually came around and she apologized for hurting me but I understood. I knew it was her illness and that it wasn't my fault. Anyways the reason I brought that up is because I did lose her for a few months. I felt lost without her. Will she be moving back after the internship is over?

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[littlemiss44]

When I said bf that stood for best friend not my boy friend.

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[nak0604]

Originally Posted by littlemiss44

Oh that's going to be hard. My best friend lives kinda close to me but we usually just talk on the phone daily and that's all we need. I mean it's nice that I can see her anytime but I don't cause I tend to isolate from others. I know it will be a difficult transition for you...very hard to see yr best friend move away. Do you guys talk on the phone alot? Im worried it's going to make you more depressed. How are you feeling these days? Are you pretty stable right now? I don't really know if I've helped but I do care. One time my bf who is also bp had a bad episode where she didn't want to talk for a while. It devastated me. I was lost without her. She eventually came around and she apologized for hurting me but I understood. I knew it was her illness and that it wasn't my fault. Anyways the reason I brought that up is because I did lose her for a few months. I felt lost without her. Will she be moving back after the internship is over?

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Its going to be very hard, shes been my only hope in most of my dark sad times. I see her a lot right now face to face. We dont really talk on the phone much at all because we are able to see each other pretty often. It kinda depends on how i feel. Usually i feel great knowing i can talk to Maddie (my friend) and that i can see her. When i dont see her in a while then we usually talk for quite some time via texts occasionally. Right now im not really stable at all. I currently am changing my major at college and so far shes been helping me stay positive and okay. If i dont talk to Maddie in a while like a few days i start to get worried, sad, and lonely. I will feel really lost if i cant talk to her from time to time, sometimes i will feel really bad and even shut her and everyone else i know out for a while. Last time it happened i ended up having the police looking for me it got so bad. I apologized to her and she hugged me for a while because she felt bad that she didnt talk to me for that whole week when she had free time. I am not sure if she will. I think she still has a year left at college if im correct.

[littlemiss44]

You have alot going on with college and all. Changing majors is stressful. It's alot of pressure. I don't really know what to say other than I'm so sorry she's leaving. I know that it's going to be very hard on you. Is she just leaving for the summer and be back in the fall? If so then that is great cause she will be coming back! I don't know what I'd do without my best friend. We probably only see eachother about every other month. We have long conversations that last for over an hour. Maybe you two should start taking on the phone alot now so you get used to it...it can prepare you for when she's gone. I know yr not stable even right now and you need her presence. You'll get in the habit of just talking on the phone. Do you go to therapy on a regular basis? That can help you alot while going thru this difficult transition. So will she be back? It's exciting for her to be doing an internship. Have i helped you? I hope so. I don't want you to feel so alone. We're here for you. If you want to we can pm this summer and now so you'll have me to talk to? Just an idea. How are you doing today?

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[nak0604]

You have helped me more then you think, haha just talking through things helps me a bit and knowing someone will respond as best as they can helps. I think she will be coming back for her last year of college. We su silly have conversations that last the whole day if were not busy. I may try to see if she'd be up for talking on the phone more, sometimes she doesn't though. Currently I'm not going to therapy because where I'm located there really isn't any therapy places except for my home town but I don't know how much I'll even be home this summer. It would be great if we could PM! Today I'm alright, excited a bit. I get to see her today and I get to give her the early birthday present I have for her.

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[littlemiss44]

Originally Posted by nak0604

You have helped me more then you think, haha just talking through things helps me a bit and knowing someone will respond as best as they can helps. I think she will be coming back for her last year of college. We su silly have conversations that last the whole day if were not busy. I may try to see if she'd be up for talking on the phone more, sometimes she doesn't though. Currently I'm not going to therapy because where I'm located there really isn't any therapy places except for my home town but I don't know how much I'll even be home this summer. It would be great if we could PM! Today I'm alright, excited a bit. I get to see her today and I get to give her the early birthday present I have for her.

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That's great that your getting together today! That will be comforting for you. :-) try and focus on the fact that summer is still three months away. She's not gone yet! When is she actually leaving? Also colleges have counseling offices where you can get free therapy. They want to support you so you feel stable to get thru yr classes. You can know that they are there to help you when yr really in a crisis too. Where do you live? I'm in Portland Oregon. I'm really glad that I'm helping you. I suffer from the same illness you've got so yr not alone! I've been in a depressive episode for about 4 or 5 months and I'm finally climbing out of it. My.pdoc put me on another med to help me. It's called latuda. I'm also on lamictal, geodon, neurontin, lexapro and adderall for my adhd. I'm diagnosed with bipolar depression, bpd, anxiety and ptsd. I'm difficult to treat but I'm starting to do better. I go to weekly therapy, dbt therapy and.monthly appts with my pdoc. Whew! I do alot but my mental health is very important to me. I'm really fortunate to have insurance to do all that. I can't recall what meds yr on?

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[nak0604]

Actually for us, summer is just a couple of weeks away. She leaves 1 week after I'm done with college. Which is may 9th. I don't take any medication for anything. I have tried the college counselors for a semester and didn't really do much for me. They are kind of limited on what they can do. I am in Granville, ohio. My college is 1 and a half hours away.

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[Idiot17]

Tell me about it being hard far from your friends. My only friend/friends live in a different country, it's unbearably hard most times. I guess you end up making peace with it.

[littlemiss44]

Do you not like meds? They would help you..I'm sorry the school counselors couldn't be more helpful to you. Wow yr friend is leaving soon. You'll get thru it. Believe in yr self...yr stronger than you know! I'll be here for ya. :-) hope yr weekend is going ok. What do you do for work?

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[nak0604]

Originally Posted by Idiot17

Tell me about it being hard far from your friends. My only friend/friends live in a different country, it's unbearably hard most times. I guess you end up making peace with it.

My friend lived in another country for a few years, I didn't know what to do at all I was freaking out in my head so much. And I was really happy when I heard she was coming home.

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[nak0604]

Originally Posted by littlemiss44

Do you not like meds? They would help you..I'm sorry the school counselors couldn't be more helpful to you. Wow yr friend is leaving soon. You'll get thru it. Believe in yr self...yr stronger than you know! I'll be here for ya. :-) hope yr weekend is going ok. What do you do for work?

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Eh, I don't care for meds, I used to take a ton for a lot of stuff and I got sick so much I gave up on them. Yeah, I really hope my friend and I can go on this over night hiking trip that we've been talking about. So far my soul is at rest now that I know Madeline is in her dorm safe and asleep. I got her the fish she really liked for an early birthday present so, she's going to have a constant reminder of me, or at least I think she would xP she's so peaceful and adorable when she's sl about to go to sleep, she's also funny haha

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[littlemiss44]

Originally Posted by nak0604

Eh, I don't care for meds, I used to take a ton for a lot of stuff and I got sick so much I gave up on them. Yeah, I really hope my friend and I can go on this over night hiking trip that we've been talking about. So far my soul is at rest now that I know Madeline is in her dorm safe and asleep. I got her the fish she really liked for an early birthday present so, she's going to have a constant reminder of me, or at least I think she would xP she's so peaceful and adorable when she's sl about to go to sleep, she's also funny haha

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Hi it's littlemiss

How was yr time with madeline? Did you have fun?.I'm sure you did. Did she like her present? It kinda sounds to me that you have more than friends feelings for her? You are a guy right?- I could be wrong but u thought I'd say it. :-)

This is going to be really hard on you...again I'm sorry she's leaving but she'll be back! That's a good thing. I'll be here to support you thru it ok? Hopefully that gives you done comfort. So what do you do for work? I work pt at costco. Have you heard of that place? It's a big warehouse of bulk foods and stuff.

Samantha

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[nak0604]

It was really great! I had lots of fun. Madeline loved her present, she was pretty happy that I got the fish she liked. Also, yeah I do have more then just friend feelings for her, I actually asked her out last August. She didn't say yes, and she didn't say no so, I've got a chance haha yes I am a guy. I'd be glad for help through my summer.

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[littlemiss44]

Do you know how to private msg someone?.I sent you that last msg in a pm. Just highlight my post and at the top you'll see a.thumbs up. Three dots and then a thing that looks like a page with "writing".on it. You just push that and then you write me in pm so we can continue our conversation privately. It just takes our conversation away from yer thread. Does that make sense? I.knew you had more feelings for her! I could just sense it by how you write about her. The best couples start.out by being close friends! :-) truly. It's the best way to get to know eachother.

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[nak0604]

Haha yes u know how xP

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